Staring into the nether
Its like a giant void
Waiting for whatever will eventually be deployed
Its a space an emptiness
Of darkness and yet
Its not dark it's just lacking fulfillment of intent
So I wonder
What will live here
When will it arrive
When will it be there
The thing that's supposed to full the vacancy
Of whatever the reason the abyss was originally
Built for
Carved out to store
A vision incomplete or
Is it too soon and we need to wait some more
Its a mind fuck
I'm completely stuck
Overthinking
Whats the meaning
Help me get out of this brain
Cos it's gonna drive me crazy insane
I walk away and stare elsewhere
But my mind cant help but drift back
To that hollow nothingness of black
And even if I stop
My body cant seem to
I dont mean to
Obsessively cling to
This thing i cant explain
Its embedded in my brain
And it's driving me crazy so fucking crazy insane
Fuck not again
Quick
I need to trick
Myself into forgetting
Pull me from regretting
Why did I have to look
Why did I see
Why couldn't I just walk away and accept curiosity
No.. I had to wonder and try
To guess what could possibly be in there and why
What if it's waiting for me to jump in it and die
Wait
Is that it? Don't lie
Tell me
You have to say
Is that why I cant see it today?
I'm not supposed to I'm not ready
And if I keep trying to see it could be deadly
So maybe I should stop now
Incase this is the end somehow
And im just digging an early grave
Instead of trusting and riding the wave
I'm just falling without knowing into the cave
That will consume me if dont just click control alt S and save
Leave it alone
For fuck sake you've always known
Its the inevitable written in stone
When it's supposed to, you cant postpone
There's no option but to live while you live
So dont focus on that hugely big hole of massive
Don't do more or give more than you need to give
Its just a waste of time cos for now you're fucking fine
You're just scared of something you cant control for what?
So you dont have to walk around with that looming hole
That you know one day its for your soul
To lay itself when your body gives out
When your flesh prison goes south
Do we just sit there in the void without a view
For the rest of however long is forever times two
Or can I decorate it
Hang pictures and make it
Look bright and pretty like a homely place
So I can at least look forward to the space
That I'll curl up and shrivel away in
Seems only fair right? Well that's ok then
Ha.. cha ching that's the thing
The answer to this hole of nothing
The walls are painted by my congruency
moments I live with integrity darkness only stays from truency
When I sit consistently in avoidency annoyingly
Noone else can brighten that dark
Its up to be fuck
I better start
I hope im not too late
Please I see it now please wait
I want to to but not before
I get to line those walls with your
Face your smile your eyes
I'm sorry I didn't see you sooner I tried
And now ... its over. Its too late.
I died.
WorldsDrone08
