regret full E

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I see the boy inside

Try to ignore his mind

I see the fake ass man

Try to understand

Why the boy & the man cant live hand n hand & why the world seems to slam & reprimand

But no excuses

you're the one who chooses

to keep causing shit

when its up to you to change it!

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Why can’t you admit it?

You push away truth, All day, you avoid it

You Get annoyed at it

At yourself for being this way

You have nowhere to stay

You just keep running away

Why don’t you pause for a sec?

You look like a wreck!

That pain in your neck

It's your Paranoia

Is sayin, get a lawyer

& if you don’t leave here

To go get some more gear

its gonna annoy ya

- AGAIN! til when?

Try pushing on paper with a pen

Get it all out stop holding it in

Cos that shit in your head is poison

Can be more poisonous

than your toxic exes jealous noises

& all the other voices

Yelling at you all the choices

To choose one, and make

A choice to get yourself out of the FAKE

That fake love & into love that's for real

& take

The chance to actually heal

& let yourself fully feel

True love the True way

& not in the fucked up toxic way

you’ve been shown everyday

In every way its not ok

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Your survival mode has been on

This whole time all along

Trying to keep you from

Being vulnerable or ending up dead

Or instead

Being abandoned all over again

Makes you become

The guy who fights everyone

Everybody's an enemy so you run

To try stay safe inside,

You hide,

but don't realise

That the payoff is

you fully miss

the good shit on the other side

You & your egos pride

Have struggled in the past to confide

But now with her as your guide

You broke down & cried

With her you've never lied

With her you fully tried

To say no to getting fried

But for that to work for you

You need her to stop too

& she would if she could but cant

So you

Get denied

But her helping you is helping her too!

Cos You bring out the best

Of eachother, even though youre both a mess

Seem to be alright most times – unless

You fail todays test

& when you fuck up, you give up, you think times up, she's fed up

But actually when you’re too cooked that's the worst

Its the curse of life in reverse

Like you go do shit that'll get ya in a hearse

Before you realise you just made it way worse but cant take it back now its done

So gotta follow through or run

If only it wasnt too late

You would've been able to see how great

She could've been for you in your state

But instead at your rate

When it should've turned her love into hate

She chose to wait

For you to show up or wreck it

She hoped you'd step up & check in

You didnt you just left

& forever live with the regret

Of losing possibly the best

woman you've ever met

The greatest love in life you'll ever get

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Yea cos you came back for more

Then fucked it up harder than before

So goodbye forever

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I wont miss you much but I know for sure that you,

You will miss me!

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