I’ve searched for years, for the truth you give
And at times I felt it, but not now!
My heart sways each day, each minute
But I’m still trying to find you God!
I try to be who you want me to be,
God, it never feels I’m doing enough!
I haven’t lived to what you say in your word
God, I’m lost, I can’t find my path!
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God, I’m not where you want me to be!
Please hold tight to my heart!
I know I don’t have to earn grace,
But something keeps me away from you!
God, you’ve given me proof, signs and truth!
Why can’t I believe they are for real?
I push you away everyday
And I know the truth is right in front of me!
I’m at the bend in the road, what will I choose?
Left? Is that right? Maybe not!
I’ve chosen the wrong path for years
Guide me to where I should go!
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God, I’m not where you want me to be!
Please hold tight to my heart!
I know I don’t have to earn grace,
But something keeps me away from you!
My doers are locked tight! I don’t have a key
The locks rusty even if I did
Bring me oil God, I need your help!
Just enough to unlock just one!
I’m searching for answers I’m not sure I want
But my life depends on this God
Show me your light, let me feel your love!
Give me the strength to choose my path!
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God, I’m not where you want me to be!
Please hold tight to my heart!
I know I don’t have to earn grace!
But something keeps me away from you!
You’ve held me for years, why do keep holding on?
What you want to say now is fierce!
“Child, accept my love! I can help you now!”
I never felt love like I’ve felt in your arms
But I continue to stray, I run in fear!
The war in my mind takes over my thoughts
Please help me keep you in my heart!
My heart is stone, the dark consumes me now
And, it’s what comes in the dark i fear!
A war resides in my soul, I need to choose!
Be strong my child! I’m always here!
