Let me have you sit down to have and chat with me. To figure out is it you that’s really hurting me. So just let just cut at the seams and show everyone there’s two part of me. That’s always fighting it seams, one want peace and the other wants to destroy me And watch me cry out and scream.
So look, I know I’ll let you in way back then but to be honest, I thought I was speaking to a friend so you’re telling me that was always your hand one that made me feel comfort and made me hurt my hand, just punching the wall again and again so you made me do that my friend?!
I know I needed you way back then so tell me why?
You see I find that hard to believe those times you didn’t even know I was there when you was a sleep because then I just like wandering into your dreams and then I wake you up And you have a petrified look on your face and then you can’t go to bed so you stay up and then I just get up in your head and yes, I made you punch the wall again until I saw those bleeding hands.
All right, man how about you relax a little bit I was just a kid you made it seem like I was stuck in a abyss still not understanding what I just did cause I was still a foolish kid and now I have to live with the consequences I did. I wish I could get you out of my head is what I repeatedly said. But you just kept on pulling on the threads you made it seem like I couldn’t even trust my friends and you made it seem even the good things were a dread you hear what I just said.
Yeah, yeah you know you have fun too Should we tell them about the other things we be thinking about when you were just alone in that room acting innocent too. I know what I am but you don’t even know what to do. You got that light inside of you but i hold on to it, to keep that from you I guess that helped you fight but that aside I still have you grabbing onto that knife almost ending your life.
you’re very funny with that response Who cares about those thoughts those days are gone. So give it a yawn that kid as a gift the people seem to forget. That light is his and it growing too and he’s gonna be stronger than you very soon. So get ready because I’m bout to end this battle soon cause you don’t think a lot of things can stop you, but you’re up against me. Someone once a former king so to me you’re like a peasant that I just sent out to sea. So pack your shit and look for a new home cuz that’s not me.
So that’s the two sides of me that not a lot of people get to see. I hope you know you understand what I’ve been going through. It’s like a blizzard making me cold and hollow like which path should I follow?
I don’t wanna go back to the past filled with sorrow. Because I made a lot of growth I’m gonna start a new family filled with Hope. Cause I don’t want my kids filled with holes.
Cause my family calls holes that I can’t close so just leave me here with my hood up and my eyes closed. Till I’m gray and old.
JBDL
