Yeah…
Late nights, cold walls, no sleep again…
Bottle talk louder than my own head now…
I don’t even feel human anymore…
Room dark, blinds shut, ash all on the floor,
Every time I hear my thoughts, I pour a little more,
Mama said “fight it,” but the demons know my name,
Every mirror in the house lookin’ at me with shame.
I been numb too long, I can’t cry no more,
Got a heart full of pain and a locked front door,
Everybody say they love me till the lights go dim,
Then I’m back with the bottle and the thoughts again.
I don’t trust smiles, they fade too fast,
Everybody move on but I live in the past,
Head full of static, soul feel dead,
Only thing that understands me is the burn instead.
So I drink…
Till the noise disappear,
Till I can’t feel fear,
Till my reflection ain’t clear…
And I know…
This ain’t healing my scars,
But the whiskey hold me closer
Than the people in my arms…
Alcohol my only friend tonight,
Hold me while I fall apart inside,
Every shot make the darkness quiet,
Every sip help me hide from life.
I been alone inside my head so long,
Can’t tell what’s real when the pain this strong,
Numb to the world, numb to myself,
Bottle on the table like it’s all I got left.
Another empty bottle by the side of the bed,
Another night replayin’ every word ever said,
I don’t wanna die, I just don’t wanna feel,
Pain got a way of makin’ fake wounds real.
Friends disappeared when the storm came down,
Now I fake little laughs when I’m out in town,
But deep down, I’m drowning slow,
Smilin’ outside while my soul let go.
I got ghosts in my chest and smoke in my lungs,
Memories hit harder than the barrel of a gun,
Every drink turn my heartbeat cold,
Twenty-something years feel a hundred years old.
And the silence scream louder at 3AM…
When the whole world sleep and it’s just me again…
I try to run but my mind too fast…
So I pour another drink and fade to black…
Alcohol my only friend tonight,
Hold me while I fall apart inside,
Every shot make the darkness quiet,
Every sip help me hide from life.
I been alone inside my head so long,
Can’t tell what’s real when the pain this strong,
Numb to the world, numb to myself,
Bottle on the table like it’s all I got left.
And if I disappear into the night…
Tell ‘em I was tired of fightin’ my mind…
Cause loneliness can turn a soul so cold…
Till the only thing you love
Comes poured in gold…
LDRides
