Still Standing Somehow by LDRides - Zona

Still Standing Somehow by LDRides - Zona

Lyrics

[Verse 1]

Another morning, same routine, another mask I wear,

They tell me that I’m doing fine, but they don’t know I’m scared.

I smile when they are looking, then I fade into the gray,

I’ve gotten so damn good at acting, no one sees the pain.

I answer every phone call, I show up every day,

I carry every burden just to keep the wolves away.

But every quiet second turns into another fight,

With every single version of myself I couldn’t like.

[Pre-Chorus]

I’m drowning in a crowded room,

Still somehow standing tall.

Everybody says I’m strong…

Why do I still feel so small?

[Chorus]

I’m living with functional depression,

Walking through life with invisible wounds.

Everybody sees my direction,

Nobody hears what echoes in my room.

I feel like I failed everyone who believed in me,

Like I’m the only one who can’t become what I’m supposed to be.

My mind’s a battlefield that never lets me rest,

I’m smiling for the world while losing every war inside my chest.

[Verse 2]

I’m tired of apologizing for the things I cannot say,

For disappearing into silence when my colors fade away.

I replay every memory, every choice that I have made,

Convincing myself somehow that I’m the reason people changed.

I built these walls so carefully, brick by brick alone,

Now I’m trapped inside a house that never felt like home.

Every compliment feels borrowed, every victory feels fake,

Waiting for the day they realize I was one big mistake.

[Bridge]

If I disappeared tomorrow, would the silence fill the room?

Would they notice all the battles that I fought without a wound?

I’m not asking for a rescue… I’m just begging for some peace.

I just want this endless war inside my mind to finally cease.

Maybe healing isn’t lightning.

Maybe it comes slow.

Maybe strength is waking up…

When every part of you says no.

[Final Chorus]

I’m living with functional depression,

Still showing up with tears I never show.

Everybody sees me moving,

But nobody knows how close I am to letting go.

I feel like I failed everyone who ever called my name,

Carrying all this guilt until I don’t recognize my face.

But somewhere underneath these scars, a heartbeat still remains…

So I’ll keep taking one more step,

Even if tomorrow feels the same.

[Outro]

If you’re looking at me smiling…

Know it took everything today.

I’m still standing somehow…

Even when my mind tells me to break.