Static on Repeat

(Yeah…)

Same ceiling, same ghosts, same night again

Bottle half gone, pills in my hand

Everybody ask me how I been—

I just smile and say, “Man… I’m fine…”

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Wake up with the TV glow

Same damn ache that I can’t let go

Coffee cold on the counter edge

Another long night hanging by a thread

Got friends saying, “Bro, you changed”

But pain got hands and it grips like chains

I laugh too loud so they won’t see through

The empty eyes in the bathroom view

Every day feel copy-paste

Same dark thoughts that I can’t escape

Drive these roads with no destination

Heart on mute, lost in sedation

Mama worried when I don’t call back

But I can’t explain where my soul at

So I pour another drink real slow

Just to make this silence let go

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I keep saying I’m alright

Even when I can’t sleep at night

Round and round like a tire burn

Running from pain that always returns

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I say I’m fine, but I’m stuck on repeat

Same sad songs and the same heartbeat

Pills in my pocket, liquor on my breath

Tryna feel alive while I dance with death

Everybody sees the smile I fake

But they don’t see the cracks I hide away

I numb myself just to kill the noise

But the pain comes back when the high destroys

I say I’m fine…

Yeah, I say I’m fine…

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2 AM and the sink got stains

Mirror looking like it know my pain

Hands shaking while I light that smoke

Laughing with the demons like it’s some joke

Used to dream about a better life

Now I just survive through the longest nights

One more pill just to slow my head

One more shot till the fear goes dead

Girl I loved said, “You disappeared”

Truth is—I been gone for years

Still breathing but I feel halfway buried

Young soul moving old and weary

Everybody got advice to give

“Just move on” like it’s easy to live

When your brain keep spinning like broken gears

And your chest feel heavy for twenty years

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And I know this road gon’ break me down

But numb feels safer than feeling now

So I drown my mind in neon haze

Trying to survive another day

(Another day…)

(Another day…)

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I say I’m fine, but I’m losing grip

Another blackout, another sip

Pills and whiskey on the dashboard light

Trying to outrun myself all night

Everybody hears the jokes I make

But they don’t hear how my soul still shakes

I built these walls so nobody knows

How deep this hurt inside me goes

I say I’m fine…

But I’m tired of the loop tonight

Yeah… I’m tired of the loop tonight…

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Same ceiling… same ghosts… same pain again…

Bottle half gone… pills in my hand…

And if you ask me how I been…

I’ll probably lie and say…

“I’m fine.”