Quiet relapse

(Soft male vocals)

Bottle on the sink, pills on the floor

Swore I was done, but I came back for more

Cold sweats hit when the night gets still

Tryna outrun a pain that the drugs can’t kill

(Male Vocals)

Started with a little just to quiet my head

Now the silence only comes when I’m halfway dead

Friends stopped callin’, I stopped pickin’ up

Everybody saw me sink while I filled my cup

Hands keep shaking when the high burns out

Every mirror in the house got me filled with doubt

Can’t tell if I’m numb or if I just don’t feel

Every scar inside my chest suddenly gets real

Late nights drivin’ with the radio low

Tryna find the old me that I used to know

But the roads all blur and the lights move slow

Withdrawal got me feelin’ like a ghost in snow

(Soft echo) [ghost in the snow…]

(Male Vocals)

And my body keeps breaking down piece by piece

Every time I say goodbye, it won’t release

I been fighting every demon I became

But the hardest part is hearing my own name

(Male + Female layered vocals)

I’m shaking in the dark tryna fight this pain

Sweat dripping down like the cold hard rain

Every little memory cuts my veins again

And I don’t even know where to begin

(where do I begin…)

I was chasing something just to feel alive

Now I’m barely hanging on, just tryna survive

The drugs took my soul, left my heart worn thin

Now withdrawal’s pulling every scar back in

(Male Vocals)

Three a.m., staring holes through the ceiling fan

Thinking maybe this is all that I ever am

Empty bottles lined up like a crime scene

Every bad decision replaying in HD

Mama said she misses who I was before

Before I locked my feelings behind a pharmacy door

And every promise that I made turned fake

‘Cause addiction got a voice that my heart can’t break

Chest tight, vision blurry when I try to sleep

Nightmares crawl through me when the silence creeps

I can hear my pulse pounding through my skull

While the world outside keeps moving like it’s normal

(Stripped-back vocals)

Maybe healing ain’t a straight white line

Maybe rock bottom’s where you finally climb

Maybe every scar don’t gotta disappear

Maybe strength is waking up and staying here

(Soft echo layered)

(Male + Female vocals)

I’m shaking in the dark tryna fight this pain

Cold hands trembling while I scream your name

Every little memory cuts my veins again

But tonight I’m finally ready to change

(ready to change…)

The drugs took years that I can’t rewind

But I’m still breathing, so there’s still some time

Even broken souls can learn to live again

When withdrawal stops and the healing begins

(Soft fading vocals)

Bottle on the sink… pills on the floor…

This time I don’t need ‘em anymore…