Just Breathe

I’ve been losing sleep tryna fix what I can’t

Running in circles with my head in my hands

Smile on my face but it don’t feel real

They don’t see the weight that I conceal

I’ve been holding it in, never let it show

Got a lot on my chest but I keep it low

And I know that it hurts me but it’s all I know

So I bottle it up and I put on a show

Late nights staring up at the ceiling again

Thinking maybe I should’ve done things different then

Replaying every mistake in my head

Like somehow it’ll change what was said

But the more that I think, the less that I know

The more that I chase, the less that I grow

Maybe the answer ain’t control

Maybe it’s learning to let it go

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And I swear I lost a lot on the way

But I’m still here at the end of the day

Ain’t no pieces left to break

So what’s left is mine to take

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So I breathe in, I let it go

Too many nights out on my own

I was lost but now I see

There ain’t nothing left controlling me

Yeah I breathe in, I breathe out slow

Had to lose it all to grow

When you hit the bottom long enough

You find a different kind of hope

I’ve taken shots just to numb the pain

Just to make it all go away for a day

But when the morning comes and the buzz wears thin

I’m still me, so I heal within

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I been down in the dark where the light don’t reach

Had to learn every lesson nobody could teach

Every scar got a story that I didn’t choose

But every scar reminds me I didn’t lose

I don’t fear rock bottom no more

What’s the worst when you’ve hit the floor?

When you’ve been broken and survived it all

You stop being scared of the fall

I still mess up, I still get it wrong

Still got nights where I don’t feel strong

But I made it through every one before

So why would this one be more?

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So I breathe in, I let it go

Too many nights out on my own

I was lost but now I see

There ain’t nothing left controlling me

Yeah I breathe in, I breathe out slow

Had to lose it all to grow

When you got nothing left to lose

You got everything left to choose

I’ve taken shots just to numb the pain

Trying to quiet thoughts in my brain

But every road keeps pulling me back

To learning how to breathe through the cracks

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Funny how it breaks you down

Just to build you back somehow

Thought I lost everything I knew

Found a stronger version coming through

Maybe pain was never hell

Maybe it was there to show and tell

Every wrong turn, every bruise

Was a lesson I could use

Maybe healing ain’t a place

Maybe it’s just learning grace

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So I breathe in, I let it go

Too many nights out on my own

I was lost but now I see

There ain’t nothing left controlling me

Yeah I breathe in, I breathe out slow

Had to lose it all to grow

When you got nothing left to lose

You got everything left to choose

I know the road ain’t always straight

But I’m still here, I still change

And that’s enough for me today