[VERSE 1]
I’ve been losing sleep tryna fix what I can’t
Running in circles with my head in my hands
Smile on my face but it don’t feel real
They don’t see the weight that I conceal
I’ve been holding it in, never let it show
Got a lot on my chest but I keep it low
And I know that it hurts me but it’s all I know
So I bottle it up and I put on a show
Late nights staring up at the ceiling again
Thinking maybe I should’ve done things different then
Replaying every mistake in my head
Like somehow it’ll change what was said
But the more that I think, the less that I know
The more that I chase, the less that I grow
Maybe the answer ain’t control
Maybe it’s learning to let it go
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[PRE-CHORUS]
And I swear I lost a lot on the way
But I’m still here at the end of the day
Ain’t no pieces left to break
So what’s left is mine to take
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[CHORUS]
So I breathe in, I let it go
Too many nights out on my own
I was lost but now I see
There ain’t nothing left controlling me
Yeah I breathe in, I breathe out slow
Had to lose it all to grow
When you hit the bottom long enough
You find a different kind of hope
I’ve taken shots just to numb the pain
Just to make it all go away for a day
But when the morning comes and the buzz wears thin
I’m still me, so I heal within
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[VERSE 2]
I been down in the dark where the light don’t reach
Had to learn every lesson nobody could teach
Every scar got a story that I didn’t choose
But every scar reminds me I didn’t lose
I don’t fear rock bottom no more
What’s the worst when you’ve hit the floor?
When you’ve been broken and survived it all
You stop being scared of the fall
I still mess up, I still get it wrong
Still got nights where I don’t feel strong
But I made it through every one before
So why would this one be more?
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[CHORUS]
So I breathe in, I let it go
Too many nights out on my own
I was lost but now I see
There ain’t nothing left controlling me
Yeah I breathe in, I breathe out slow
Had to lose it all to grow
When you got nothing left to lose
You got everything left to choose
I’ve taken shots just to numb the pain
Trying to quiet thoughts in my brain
But every road keeps pulling me back
To learning how to breathe through the cracks
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[BRIDGE]
Funny how it breaks you down
Just to build you back somehow
Thought I lost everything I knew
Found a stronger version coming through
Maybe pain was never hell
Maybe it was there to show and tell
Every wrong turn, every bruise
Was a lesson I could use
Maybe healing ain’t a place
Maybe it’s just learning grace
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[FINAL CHORUS]
So I breathe in, I let it go
Too many nights out on my own
I was lost but now I see
There ain’t nothing left controlling me
Yeah I breathe in, I breathe out slow
Had to lose it all to grow
When you got nothing left to lose
You got everything left to choose
I know the road ain’t always straight
But I’m still here, I still change
And that’s enough for me today
Vesper
