Still I stay

Title: “Still Here”

Yeah…

You ever love somebody so much…

That every red flag just looked like another chance?

I keep telling myself this’ll be the last time…

Phone lights up, then it goes back dark,

I’m memorizing silence like it’s modern art.

You say you’re busy, say you’ll be around,

But every promise somehow never touches ground.

Random calls saying, “Baby, I’ll explain,”

Then you’re gone again like yesterday.

Leaving at midnight, coming home at dawn,

Every piece of trust I had is almost gone.

You never come over, there’s always a reason,

Winter in my chest no matter the season.

You swear it’s nothing, tell me I’m insane,

Now I’m questioning my own damn brain.

How many tears fit inside one soul?

How many lies before the whole thing folds?

I’m hanging by a thread that you can’t even see…

But somehow you still mean everything to me.

I’m breaking, but I stay.

I’m drowning every single day.

You keep pulling me beneath,

Then asking why I can’t breathe.

Love shouldn’t hurt like this, I know…

But my heart just won’t let go.

Maybe I’m losing who I am,

Trying to hold what’s slipping through my hands.

Every excuse got another excuse,

Every little truth got twisted and used.

You changed your password, changed your tone,

Made me feel lonely while I wasn’t alone.

I stopped asking questions, I feared what I’d hear,

Started smiling outside while I’m dying in here.

My friends keep saying, “You deserve better,”

But love ain’t logic when you’re under the weather.

I memorize your laugh, forget my own name,

Somehow I keep taking all the blame.

I’m carrying us while you’re letting us fall,

Still hoping you’ll answer when I make that call.

[Bridge Cinematic alternative / almost a cappella (minimal beat, emotional singing or spoken vocals}

I don’t recognize the mirror anymore.

The person looking back is tired to the core.

I’m standing at the edge of giving up the fight…

But every time I leave, I turn around that night.

I keep thinking maybe tomorrow you’ll change,

Maybe tomorrow love won’t feel this strange.

Maybe tomorrow you’ll choose me too…

I’ve been living on “maybe” because of you.

I’m breaking, can you tell?

I’ve been hiding it too well.

Every lie cuts just a little deeper,

Every lonely night gets a little steeper.

Still I wait…

Still I stay…

Still I love you anyway.

Maybe that’s my biggest flaw—

Loving you while I lose it all.

One day this heart will stop calling your name.

One day I’ll stop chasing the smoke and the flame.

But tonight… I’m still standing where you left me…

Hoping you’ll finally choose me…

The way I’ve always chosen you.