Six Plates At The Table

Six plates at the table, but it never felt right

Two parents in the house, still we fightin’ at night

Secrets in the walls, we was breathin’ it in

Actin’ like a family, hidin’ all of the sin

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I grew up fast, had to carry that weight

Five siblings with me, yeah we all felt the same

Tryna find love but that shit don’t feel real

Too many scars, I don’t know how to heal

We was runnin’ from pain, tryna find a way out

All the shit we ain’t say still be screamin’ out loud

Mama good with me but I still see the strain

Some bonds broke forever, we can’t fix that pain

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Five kids in the house, we was fightin’ for space

Same blood in our veins, different hurt in our face

Heard the fights through the walls, I was losin’ my sleep

Learned to bury emotions, never sayin’ a peep

Dad had secrets, we ain’t talk but we knew

Energy shift, yeah that shit bleed through

Love felt fake, like it came with a cost

One wrong move and that shit get lost

I don’t trust easy, I was buildin’ a wall

When you seen love break, you expect it to fall

Tried to find it in people that wasn’t the same

Now I question intentions, everybody a game

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I grew up fast, had to carry that weight

Five siblings with me, yeah we all feel the same

Tryna find love but that shit don’t feel real

Too many scars, I don’t know how to heal

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Mama held me down, she the reason I’m here

But I seen her cry, that shit made it clear

Love can hurt even when it’s real

Even strong hearts still gotta feel

Broken relationships all around me

Some bridges gone, ain’t no fixin’ what be

Family tied but it’s barely intact

Some love gone and it ain’t comin’ back

I been tryna escape, dreamin’ of peace

But the past don’t fade, it just don’t release

Every time I love, I expect it to end

Like pain the only thing that’s real in the end

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Wait… six plates… wasn’t it seven before?

We had a sister… but we don’t no more

A baby gone, never got to grow

Just a ghost in the house we don’t even know

What the fuck happened? Why nobody speak?

Why her memory feel so buried, so deep?

No pics, no stories, just silence and space

Like she never existed, just erased

Did she look like us? Would she laugh? Would she cry?

Would she sit at the table? Would she still be alive?

Now it’s just a gap that don’t ever get fixed

A part of my family that don’t exist… but exists

And that shit fuck me up more than I say

‘Cause you can’t grieve fully when it’s hidden away

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We don’t talk about it… we just live around it…

Like she never happened… but I feel the absence…

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I grew up fast, yeah I carried that weight

Five siblings with me, yeah we all had our pain

Still tryna love even when it don’t heal

Hopin’ one day it finally feel real

We was runnin’ from pain, now I’m facin’ it all

Tryna break every cycle so my kids never fall

Mama good with me, yeah I hold onto that

Even if some love never comin’ back