Red Rain / Made Me Feel

Dead…

Yeah, I wish I was dead and cold…

But then you call my phone again…

And it’s worse than being alone…

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Wake up every day and it just feels repetitive,

Think I need a chill, think I need a sedative.

Depression hittin’ hard, finally settin’ in,

Sinkin’ to my feet, settle deep like sediment.

Walkin’ down this road called life so blindly,

Hopin’ for a purpose, prayin’ it might find me.

Either drowning in the dark or hidin’ in my sheets,

Tell the world I’m fine — but I’m lying through my teeth.

And still…

I wish I was dead, I wish I was dead and cold…

But your name pop up on my screen and it hits my soul.

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My heart breaks when you call my phone,

Why can’t you just leave me alone?

I can’t escape the way you made me feel —

Made me feel, yeah… made me feel.

My heart breaks when you call my phone,

Why can’t you just leave me alone?

I can’t escape the way you made me feel,

Even when I say I’m healed.

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Put me in a grave today, black suit, red bouquet,

Too scared to leave, too tired to stay.

Bullet in the chamber might stop all the rain,

Blood on the walls drippin’ down like pain.

Feel my soul slip out with each cut from the blade,

No one ever sings along to the songs that I made.

Baby, you replaced me so fast — yeah, it’s tragic,

Every lie you fed me turned my habits into havoc.

Two damn phones like Kevin Gates,

One for the hurt, one for mistakes.

You took my place, left my heart displaced,

Now your name hits my chest like a tidal wave.

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Time goes by and I still try

To outrun shadows that follow behind.

You were the best thing I ever had —

And the worst thing at the same time.

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My heart breaks when you call my phone,

Why can’t you just leave me alone?

I can’t escape the way you made me feel —

Made me feel…

My heart breaks when you call my phone,

Why can’t you just leave me alone?

I can’t escape the way you made me feel —

Made me feel…

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Lost in my head…

Lost in my bed…

Arms out still reachin’ for a ghost I’ll never get back…

Stain my mind and I won’t let you go,

Close my eyes just to bring you home.

But the home don’t feel like home no more…

And I don’t wanna die,

But I don’t wanna feel like this either.

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Dead inside, yeah I know that tone,

Your voice feel like knives every time you phone.

You said we’d grow, but we outgrew hope,

Now I’m suffocatin’ on the words you spoke.

I’m comin’ down, yeah I’m comin’ down slow,

Tryna outrun what I can’t let go.

Lonely roads lead to victims in the soul —

And I’m scared of death,

But this pain feels close.

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My heart breaks when you call my phone,

Why can’t you just leave me alone?

I can’t escape the way you made me feel…