Outsider’s Prayer

(soft rain + guitar loop)

Have you ever fell apart? Tell me you know what it’s like

Hiding in the dark, always looking for the light

I grew up with nothing but my soul and a fight

Every scar a scripture, every wrong feels right

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I’ve been trapped inside my head, it’s a war I can’t escape

Every dream I ever had just fades away when I wake

I’m a truth seeker, son of the reaper

All my friends ghosts now, pouring out the litre

Scars on my knees ‘cause I’ve knelt too long

Prayin’ for peace but it never belongs

To people like me, to hearts like stone

I learned to love pain ‘cause it feels like home

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Bleeding from the heart, can’t handle my reflection

Everything I lost turned into a lesson

You say it’s okay — I don’t believe it

But I still keep breathing, still keep reaching

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Have you ever fell apart? Tell me you know what it’s like

Hiding in the dark, always looking for the light

I grew up with nothing other than my soul

And the moment I give is the minute you go

I’m falling (yeah)

Through the noise and the pain, but I’m calling

For a home I’ve never known

And a voice that feels like hope

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Way too many nights just staring at the ceiling

Counting all the lies that looked like healing

Tried to move on, but the weight don’t fade

All I got left are the choices I made

I’m an outcast, a stranger, said it clearly

I scream and I shout, but nobody hears me

You can take my trust, it’s already gone

But you can’t take the fire I’ve built in my lungs

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(whispered / vocoder layer)

Maybe I’m broken, maybe that’s peace

Maybe I’m chosen, maybe I’m weak

But I’ll still rise from the dirt and grief

‘Cause I’ve learned how to bleed and still believe

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Have you ever fell apart? Tell me you know what it’s like

Hiding in the dark, still reaching for the light

I grew up with nothing other than my soul

Every cut turned gold, every loss made whole

I’m falling, yeah, but I’m crawling out slow

If pain is all I know, then pain is how I grow

(beat fades under rain sounds and low piano)

“I grew up with nothing — but maybe that’s why I glow.”