Nightfall In My Head

Take me home…

Off the ground…

Hold me tight…

Then put me down…

Night time… driving…

Everything silent…

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Standing at your grave,

Every day’s where my heart bleeds,

Back when I was takin’ drugs—

Felt my whole damn soul leave.

Can’t breathe, can’t see,

Life got colder than the snow,

Everybody kept on sayin’,

“These pills gon’ make you O.D., bro.”

Lost inside the Amityville,

Numb from all these bitter pills,

Tell me this ain’t really real—

I still got those Hollywood chills.

Broken dreams with broken crowns,

Close my eyes, you come around,

Buried memories underground,

I wish you heard me scream out loud.

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Night skies don’t lie… they die.

So high… oh my… goodbye…

And still I try, I try, I try…

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Night time, driving,

Everything silent—

You just know me so well,

Talkin’ ’bout me & myself, I’m tryin’.

Still here… waiting,

Your voice… frustrating,

You just know me too well,

Talkin’ ’bout me & myself, I’m tryin’.

I’m falling from the night sky,

Holdin’ on for dear life—

Your ghost in my veins like a lullaby.

Night lights shine bright tonight…

But inside, I’m barely alive.

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All my life been a fight,

Left with pain I can’t describe,

You don’t visualize the weight

That I keep buried deep inside.

How can I survive the night

Fightin’ off the suicide?

Heart breaks, mind shakes,

Every truth you left behind.

You stabbed a knife right through my brain,

Feels like life can’t ever change,

Never shade from any rain—

Just the thunder in my veins.

Wish that you were next to me,

Back when life was ecstasy,

Now it’s just your memory

Carved into my centerpiece.

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Who am I supposed to tell?

Thoughts locked up—post my bail…

Old scars on my body, still no heal—

I feel everything I’m supposed to feel.

And I swear sometimes I hear your voice

When you decide to come around…

Break me down…

Break me down…

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Night time, driving,

Everything silent—

You just know me so well,

Talkin’ ’bout me & myself, I’m tryin’.

Still here… waiting,

Your voice… frustrating,

You just know me too well,

Talkin’ ’bout me & myself, I’m tryin’.

Take me home… off the ground…

Hold me tight… then put me down…

I’m coming down… coming down…

But you still echo in my hometown.

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Night skies… don’t lie…

I try, I try, I try…

You see the pain right through my eyes…

And still… I try…