Hated

Uhh yo listen

I hate myself

I SAID I hate myself

I SAID I HATE MY FUCKING SELF

My head is sophisticated and unrealistic my mind is so fucking distant i am numb right through to my core I just don't want this FUCKING LIFE anymore I just want to leave this planet, start somewhere new , that's not gonna happen as am trapped forever getting kicked to the kerb and fucking stomped all over

My life is over I am finished I need to be dismissed and never missed isolated away from the world so I can deal with myself and no one else my heads a ticking time bomb ready to explode and explode I will not be sorry for the damange caused as I have no control when we loose control I can't regulate my emotions am disengaged with the reality and the public my life's a mess why do I stay in this torment I thought I was breaking free but LUCKY ME AM STILL FUCKING STUCK.

Fuck I am stuck

Fuck I am stuck

Why can't I get through this muck that I call my head why can't the personas let me be dead they are dangerous and damaging when they get full control and I can't remember where they serve a purpose as I am brainwashed and in shock I can't complete this concoction I just need the Glock to blow my fucking BRAINS OUT AND ALL OVER THE WALLS.

Am accused of being manipulative and narcissistic yeah I honour those traits but that relates back to my shitty outta wack lifestyle I was born into my mum's a goblin who used me for her own gratification by controlling me and manipulating my ever breath my dad's a dead weight as he left me when I was 5 and when I came back he wasn't interested my brother is a decent bloke however he used to bully me Infront of everyone so then they all started it and it was acceptable.

Am just a waste of oxygen and Expendable to the world I serve no purpose i have no real life as it's all tied to this FUCKING KNIFE. I can't even hear myself think or even control the way I speak as am just in a constant defeat it's horrible to say BUT I HATE WOMEN AS THEY JUST FUCKING RUIN YOU I know not all are the same but I have always fallen under the spell of the demonesses and they posses me so am trapped and can't break free like I should be, when I try am reeled back in like a fish hanging to the bait.

My head is full of hate

My heart is full of nothing

My blood is always boiling

My soul has lost its sparks

Myself is dead

My personas are alive and I am revived.

I look for a way to be demolished and banished as I can't seem to live in this realm of the public I just can't seem to gel and when I do I get yelled at also accused and questioned why is everyone so interested in my shitty life I would rather just take the knife and end my life people use me for there know needs and bully me as they know they can and most of all it's the things with Tits that get the greatest grips and I just want to snip free and move away so am no longer bullied by the demonesses.