Abandoned

Have you ever Wondered

Why do you feel disconnected

Why do you feel neglected

Why do you feel abandoned

Why do you need to rectify.

Feeling abandoned in life

Feeling neglected all the time

Feeling pushed aside

Feeling pushed out

Feeling in drought.

I can never understand this feeling inside me I just cant seem to find the answers for the questions I ask I always feel sad which then leads to me being mad so I explode and unleash the load that no one knows I just want to see straight instead of getting high rate when people show me compassion I just harassing followed by the gaslighting it's frightening but inviting.

It doesn't have to be this way however my mind is made up with all the ruckus I keep deep inside the sea to watch it float away but one day I will pull through the questions I ask have never been awnserd so am feeling like cancer finding a cure is close but not complete so the mind needs deleted from depleted secrets i can never understand others feelings when there grieving the loss of a family member or even there own dismemberment.

Hint hint am broken and my emotions are smoking looking at my life and smelling the fire burning am turning into myself as no one seems to understand what it feels like to have this feeling when my questions are never awnserd so I glide through life hoping this will fly but instead there dropping dead like the fruit flies when the rotten food submerges so there's no nutrients to keep them alive we all die anyways so what's the point in changing our ways when we are going to end up slayed then laid to rest

Feeling abandoned in life

Feeling neglected all the time

Feeling pushed aside

Feeling pushed out

Feeling in drought

Abandonment is an experiment to see how you will cope under the extreme determinant of the selection of the ones who you're supposed to trust so I go bust and try to defeat my life as it's a must could even go far enough to achieve the necessities of this deeper feeling when we are all just healing.

Once your glass has been broken there not completion so I feel deletions of my life cells I still can't get the answer to my question why do I self sabotage? Why do I try to heal? Why can't I feel? Is my life even real? I just want to squeal to end the sequel so I can be equal to the end of life when we switch our lights.

I fear abandonment so I create torment to keep the people I love safe but this isn't the case as they always say your scaring me this is my sense of protection even tho I am just this infection that never gets correction just sectioned which is better for the infection.

Feeling abandoned in life

Feeling neglected all the time

Feeling pushed aside

Feeling pushed out

Feeling in drought

Am going into quarantine as I am just mean so I lean forward and say this is the end for me today I just wish I could stay but being rested as requested.