Receipt

Okay

Okay

No no no

(low guitar, distant 808s, soft hum)

I been chasing something bigger, but I’m losing you instead

Every dollar that I make feels like another night we missed

I’ve been spending so much on this bitch I’m gunna have to pull the receipts

I know you’re mine the way you hold my hand while I’m overdosing barely able to breathe

I know I’m killing myself slowly the way I’m waking up sweating through my sheets

Baby just pop these pills with me I’ve been working hard to be able to kick up my feet

I been working every night, barely making it home

You keep asking for my time, I’m just staring at my phone

Got a pocket full of money but I’m spending it alone

Building something for tomorrow while you’re crying on your own

I told you I’d be better, I just never told you when

Every time I disappear, you wonder where I’ve been

I keep getting into shit that I know you won’t forgive

I’m trying to build a life with you while destroying how we live

You deserve somebody present, not a ghost behind a door

Not somebody coming home when you don’t recognize him anymore

I keep saying, “Just a little longer, baby, then we’ll have it all”

But every time I chase the future, you’re the one I make it cost

I’ve been spending so much on this bitch I’m gunna have to pull the receipts

I know you’re mine the way you hold my hand while I’m overdosing barely able to breathe

I know I’m killing myself slowly the way I’m waking up sweating through my sheets

Baby just pop these pills with me I’ve been working hard to be able to kick up my feet

I know you hate the nights when you don’t know where I’m at

I know you hate the person that I become when I relapse

I’m chasing every dollar, every problem, every high

Then I look into your eyes and see the reason I should try

You tell me that you love me, but your voice don’t sound the same

I can hear it getting colder every time I say your name

I’ve been busy getting paid, busy running from my pain

Busy doing everything except protecting what we made

If I could trade these fucking hours just to get you back beside me

I’d give up every check if I knew you’d still be waiting

‘Cause what’s the point of having everything I ever wanted

If the person I was working for is gone when I finally got it?

(beat drops out, vocals almost whispered)

Maybe I don’t need another dollar

Maybe I just need another night with you

Maybe all this running from my problems

Is the reason I’m running away from you

I’ve been spending so much on this bitch I’m gunna have to pull the receipts

I know you’re mine the way you hold my hand while I’m overdosing barely able to breathe

I know I’m killing myself slowly the way I’m waking up sweating through my sheets

Baby just pop these pills with me I’ve been working hard to be able to kick up my feet

(outro — guitar fades, whispered)

I keep working for a life we never get to live…

And I don’t know how much longer you’ll wait for me.