(HOOK)
I wake up to you crying rubbing my chest again
I’m sorry babe I really love my medicine
Sorry you keep wondering if I wake up again
Cupid dressed in camo got him looking like a veteran
I blame it on me having these benjamin’s
But she says it’s the pills again, baby just let me in
(Uh-huh), baby just let me in, (oh-kay)
(VERSE 1 )
Rain on the window, baby all I feel is pain
Sleeping through the daylight, drowning in my brain
You looking through my eyes like you don’t know what changed
I swear I wanna love you but my heart inside a cage
Pills got me numb, now my feelings acting strange
Smile for a minute then I’m crying in the rain
Tryna fight depression but it’s running through my veins
You keep reaching for me, I keep slipping from your range (yeah)
Late night, ashtray, tears all on the sink stain
Thinking if I leave, would anybody feel the same?
You say you love me deeply but I still feel outta place
I keep self-destructing, tryna hide it with the fame
Got a dark cloud hanging, tattooed on my brain
Every time you hold me, I still push you away
Love knocking at the door but I don’t know what to say
Feel like I’m too broken, baby maybe I should fade
(PRE-HOOK / BREAKDOWN)
Slow down, heartbeat, silence in the room
You say “baby please don’t leave me to the gloom”
I say “I’m trying but these shadows make me lose”
Fighting with myself, got me scared to love you too
(yeah, yeah… uh-huh)
(HOOK)
I wake up to you crying rubbing my chest again
I’m sorry babe I really love my medicine
Sorry you keep wondering if I wake up again
Cupid dressed in camo got him looking like a veteran
I blame it on me having these benjamin’s
But she says it’s the pills again, baby just let me in
(Uh-huh), baby just let me in, (oh-kay)
(VERSE 2 )
Dark room, hoodie on, heart feeling froze now
Everybody talking but I barely hear a sound
You trying to pull me up, depression pull me down
I been fighting demons while they circling around
Love feel close but somehow never found
Every time I trust, somehow it all burn down
Bottle on the dresser got me feeling spun out
You say “baby talk to me,” but I just shut down (damn)
I know that you care but I can’t let you close now
Scared if you see inside, you won’t stay around
Boy inside me hurting but the drugs too loud
Cupid got bad aim, left my soul in the crowd
You begging me to stay, saying don’t drown
I’m tryna find love but I’m too far gone now
If heaven got a hotline, I might call right now
Still praying somehow you don’t let me down
(OUTRO / BREAKDOWN)
Baby just let me in… before the lights all dim
I know I’m hard to love, but I’m still trying again
(uh-huh… oh-kay… yeah, yeah)