Up For Rent

(humming… yeah… mm)

You can have my heart, it’s up for rent

I can’t tell you it will be money well spent

I said “I love you” but that was a message unsent

“Baby just hold my hand, come here and sit”

You can do as you want with my heart, just know I’ll repent

Even the blind know you’re bad just from your scent

Study every line that the devil said just to see what you meant

Every line that ends with “I hate yo” is just another chant

Got a lot to say, I don’t mean to rant

But the Hennessy and the pill I’ll give another chance to vent

(vent… vent…)

You ain’t even have to try that hard

You just played your part, I supplied the heart

Soft voice, dim lights, told me I was scarred

Said you understood me, that’s where it start

You studied me like a blueprint

Every insecurity, you knew it

Told me I was safe in your arms

Didn’t know I was walking into ruin

First night felt like heaven’s gates

Second week I was wide awake

Third month I was losing weight

From the stress and the love and the pills I’d take

You’d cry when I pulled away

Say I changed, I was the one to blame

But you built a house in my brain

Now I’m pacing every hallway saying your name

(low hum… trapped… trapped…)

You can have my heart, it’s up for rent

I can’t tell you it will be money well spent

I said “I love you” but that was a message unsent

“Baby just hold my hand, come here and sit”

You can do as you want with my heart, just know I’ll repent

Even the blind know you’re bad just from your scent

Study every line that the devil said just to see what you meant

Every line that ends with “I hate you” is just another chant

Got a lot to say, I don’t mean to rant

But the Hennessy and the pill I’ll give another chance to vent

(fades… fades…)

I tried to leave, but I’d relapse

Blocked your number, then I’d reach back

Told myself this the last time

But addiction don’t respect that

You weren’t just a girl, you were withdrawal

Cold sweats when you wouldn’t call

Phone screen lighting up my room

Like a hospital down the hall

You said love shouldn’t feel like war

But we both kept settling scores

You’d kiss me right after you cut me

Now I don’t know what love is for

Every memory laced with pain

Every argument ends the same

I drink just to numb your voice

But it’s louder inside my brain

I’m drowning and you the tide

Pull me in every time I try

To swim to something stable

But I’m too far from the shoreline side

I ain’t blaming you for all of it

Some of this is my fault too

I let you turn into a substance

Now I can’t detox from you

(heavy breath… can’t escape…)

You can have my heart, it’s up for rent

I can’t tell you it will be money well spent

I said “I love you” but that was a message unsent

“Baby just hold my hand, come here and sit”

You can do as you want with my heart, just know I’ll repent

(Repent… repent… repent…)