Eyes Still Faded

(“Yeah… mmm… oh, oh…”

Eyes red, she can’t tell that I’ve been crying, she just says I’m faded (faded)

Every day it is getting a little better to love myself, I just wish it wasn’t you I hated (you I hated)

I can’t tell what we’ve created, but thoughts of you have invaded (invaded)

My mind, every day stay faded, Cupid was my friend, now I feel betrayed and (betrayed and)

I keep crying, and every love I have keeps dying (keeps dying)

Now I’m passed out on my bed and the devil said I should’ve never betrayed her (never betrayed her)

I don’t even know why I loved her… (why I loved her, yeah…)

I been tryna fill the silence, but the voices getting louder (louder)

Mix the pain with the powder, now I’m floating like I’m outer space (space)

Told myself I’d change, but my mind still stuck in place (place)

And every time I think I’m fine, I still see your face (your face, yeah)

I ain’t slept right in a week, I been chasing dreams (dreams)

Only time I feel peace is when I’m off codeine (codeine)

You said love’s supposed to heal, but it ripped my seams (ripped my seams)

Now I’m lost inside a nightmare where you still my queen (still my queen)

And I— (yeah)

I don’t know how to feel anymore (no more)

She said “you’re better off without me,” (yeah)

But why I still fall to the floor? (to the floor)

Every scar got your name on it (on it)

Every song got your pain on it (pain)

Told my heart “don’t wait for it,” (nah)

But I still stay on it… (still stay on it)

Lately I been scared of myself (myself)

Every mirror that I see don’t help (don’t help)

All these bottles on my shelf (my shelf)

They the only ones that felt how I felt (how I felt)

I still text you when I’m faded (faded)

Hope you read it though you hate it (hate it)

Devil told me “boy, you made it”

But I lost my soul when I traded…

(Beat softens — half-time switch, reverb deepens)

I been crying, I been fighting (fighting)

But the silence feels inviting (inviting)

Cupid left me here in lightning (lightning)

Burnt my wings while I was flying (flying)

And I still see you in my nightmares (nightmares)

Every song still smells like your hair (your hair)

Told myself I’d stop, but I don’t dare (don’t dare)

‘Cause I don’t know love, I just know despair (despair, yeah…)

Eyes red, she can’t tell that I’ve been crying, she just says I’m faded (faded)

Every day it is getting a little better to love myself, I just wish it wasn’t you I hated (you I hated)

I can’t tell what we’ve created, but thoughts of you have invaded (invaded)

My mind, every day stay faded, Cupid was my friend, now I feel betrayed and (betrayed and)

I keep crying, and every love I have keeps dying (keeps dying)

Now I’m passed out on my bed and the devil said I should’ve never betrayed her (never betrayed her)

I don’t even know why I loved her… (why I loved her, yeah…)

(Why I loved her)

(Why did I)

(I don’t know why I loved her)

(beat fades out slowly, echoing hums “why I loved her…”)