Hold me Close

The clock still ticks but time feels stuck

Every corner holds a piece of luck

You used to laugh and fill the air

Now silence sits in every chair

I find your glasses by the sink

I leave them there, I cannot think

The world keeps spinning, fast and loud

But I’m still standing in the cloud

I saved your last voicemail on my phone

I play it when I feel alone

Your voice is soft, a little tired

But still the warmth that I required

I trace the outline of your hand

On the wall where we used to stand

The paint is faded, just like me

A ghost of what we used to be

Tell me grief will find a door

Tell me I won’t hurt this much no more

Tell me a heart can learn to hold the loss

I’m tired of the hollow

Tired of the sorrow

Tired of waking up to the cost

But I’m ready to carry on

Hold me close, hold me now

I’m still here, I’m still here somehow

Step by step, I’m learning to stay

Hold me close, hold me now

(hold me now)

Yeah, I’m still here, I’m still here somehow

Break by break, I’m finding the way

Step by step, I’m moving away

Piece by piece, I pay the cost

Just to try to not be lost!

Just hold my hand, walk with me

I only want to be free, so please, just

Hold me close, hold me now

Your favorite song came on the radio

I pulled the car over, let the tears flow

I sang along, though I forgot the words

Like a bird that’s lost its flock, I wish I could just turn back the clock.

I’m not the same, I know that’s true

But I’m becoming someone new

With every memory I let breathe

I’m still learning how to believe

I feel this loss deep within, I lost much more than just a friend.

I lost a lover, I lost a fighter,

I lost the biggest piece of my life, I lost it all, so please [sad point, voice low, wavy, and sad, then go into long high note vocal on next line]

Won’t you please come back and guide my life [long note dropping straight into the bridge]

If I stumble, will you guide my feet? [sweet but sad note]

If I fall, will you make the ground sweet?

I’ve been walking through this winter for so long

That the first spring feels like it’s wrong

But I want the sun to touch my skin

I want to let the healing in

I want to live the life you gave

Not just a shadow on your grave [long high note. Voice waves with sadness for raw emotional effect]

Hold me close, hold me now

I’m still here, I’m still here somehow

Step by step, I’m turning around

Hold me close, hold me now

(hold me now)

Hold me close, hold me now

I’m still here, I’m still here somehow

I’m not lost, I’m found now

Hold me close, hold me now

Yeah, I’m still here, I’m still here somehow

Break by break, I’m standing my ground

Hold me close, hold me now

(hold me now)

Still here… still here…

I’m still here…

Somehow…