I Just Want to be Happy

I wake up fighting with my own reflection,

Another day beneath the same oppression.

I wear a smile like a fucking disguise,

While something inside me slowly dies.

I've chased the light through a thousand nights,

I've begged the darkness to loosen its bite.

Everyone says, “Just give it time,”

But time doesn't heal when you're losing your mind.

I'm tired of pretending.

Tired of being numb.

If there's something better—

Tell me where the hell it comes from.

I JUST WANT TO BE HAPPY!

Is that too much to ask?

I don't need a perfect life,

I just want to leave the past!

I JUST WANT TO FEEL SOMETHING

That doesn't fucking hurt!

I'm tired of surviving every day

Like surviving is all I'm worth!

I've watched the years disappear in the mirror,

Every unanswered prayer making the silence clearer.

I keep waiting for the moment to change,

But I'm still standing in the middle of the flames.

I don't want riches.

I don't want fame.

I don't need someone else to blame.

I just want one goddamn night

Where my own thoughts don't start a fight.

I'm tired of the silence.

Tired of the fear.

I don't need forever—

I just need something real.

I JUST WANT TO BE HAPPY!

Is that too much to ask?

I don't need a perfect life,

I just want to leave the past!

I JUST WANT TO FEEL SOMETHING

That doesn't fucking hurt!

I'm tired of surviving every day

Like surviving is all I'm worth!

I'M STILL HERE!

AFTER ALL THIS HELL!

I'M STILL BREATHING!

SO FUCK YOUR EMPTY WISHES—

I'LL BUILD MY OWN!

Brick by brick!

Scar by scar!

I don't have to know

How far!

I JUST HAVE TO START!

Maybe happiness isn't waiting

At the end of some distant road.

Maybe it's buried underneath

Everything I've been afraid to let go.

So I'll take this broken heart

And teach it how to beat.

I'll stop waiting for a miracle

And make something for myself.

I JUST WANT TO BE HAPPY!

And I'm done being ashamed!

I don't need to erase the scars—

They remind me that I changed!

I JUST WANT TO FEEL ALIVE!

Not perfect,