STANDING STILL

Verse 1]

The clock keeps turning, but I don't move,

Same fucking walls, same tired room.

I watch the world disappear outside,

While I'm chained to the person I keep trying to hide.

Every morning feels like the last,

Every future looks like the past.

I keep telling myself, “Just hold on,”

But I've been holding on for far too long.

I take one step—

I end up here.

I scream for change—

Nobody hears.

I'M NOT MOVING!

I'm buried beneath my own skin!

The world keeps turning,

But I'm trapped where I've always been!

I'M NOT MOVING!

I'm drowning in the same damn ground!

I'm running out of reasons

To keep running in circles around!

I've watched my dreams become dust,

Watched my faith turn into rust.

Every promise I made to myself

Is another book left on the shelf.

I see the people I used to know

Moving forward while I'm moving slow.

They keep saying, “You'll get there someday,”

But someday feels like a million miles away.

I take one step—

I lose my ground.

I beg for answers—

There are none to be found.

I'M NOT MOVING!

I'm buried beneath my own skin!

The world keeps turning,

But I'm trapped where I've always been!

I'M NOT MOVING!

I'm drowning in the same damn ground!

I'm running out of reasons

To keep running in circles around!

HOW LONG

CAN I STAY

IN THIS PLACE?!

HOW MANY TIMES

CAN I SAY

“I'M OKAY”?!

I'M SICK OF WAITING!

SICK OF FAKING!

SICK OF WATCHING MY LIFE

PASS ME BY!

Maybe the chains aren't around my wrists.

Maybe they're the thoughts I can't dismiss.

Maybe the door was never locked—

Maybe I've been too afraid to knock.

So if I'm going nowhere,

I'll tear the road apart.

If I can't find a way forward,

I'll carve one through the dark.

I'M NOT MOVING—

BUT I'M NOT FUCKING DEAD!

There's still a fire

Burning inside my head!

I'M NOT MOVING—

NOT YET, BUT I'M NOT DONE!

The world can keep on turning—

I'll find a way to run!

One step.

That's all I need.

One fucking step.

And then another.