Why Can't I Bury You

I burned your pictures, watched the colors bleed,

Told myself that was all I'd ever need.

But when the room goes dark and no one's there,

I swear I feel your fingers in my hair.

I changed the sheets, I changed the locks,

I changed the person staring at the clock.

But every road I take, every place I go,

Somehow your ghost is the only thing I know.

I hate that I still miss you.

I hate that I still care.

I hate that every empty room

Still feels like you are there.

WHY CAN'T I GET OVER YOU?

Why won't this fucking heart let go?

I've screamed your name into the darkness

Till my voice was nothing but smoke.

I know you're gone—

I know we're through—

So why the hell

Can't I get over you?

I see your face in strangers on the street,

Hear your voice inside the static when I sleep.

Every song becomes a knife beneath my skin,

Every memory asks me where you've been.

I tell my friends I'm finally doing fine,

Then spend another night fighting with my mind.

I built a life that doesn't have your name,

But somehow everything still feels the same.

Maybe I don't miss you.

Maybe I miss who I was.

Maybe I'm addicted to the pain

Because pain is all that's left of us.

WHY CAN'T I GET OVER YOU?

Why won't this fucking heart let go?

I've screamed your name into the darkness

Till my voice was nothing but smoke.

I know you're gone—

I know we're through—

So why the hell

Can't I get over you?

I TRIED TO FORGET!

I TRIED TO MOVE ON!

I TRIED TO BURY EVERYTHING WE WERE!

BUT EVERY TIME

I CLOSE MY EYES—

YOU'RE STILL FUCKING THERE!

You left the wound.

You left the scar.

You left me wondering

Who the hell I am.

Maybe tomorrow I'll wake up

And your name won't hurt.

Maybe I'll finally understand

Why losing you had to work.

But tonight I'm still standing

In the wreckage of our past,

Holding onto something

I already know won't last.

WHY CAN'T I GET OVER YOU?

WHY AM I STILL CHASING YOUR GHOST?

I've torn myself apart

Trying to become someone

Who doesn't need you anymore.

I know you're gone—

I know we're through—

But there's a piece of me

Still dying for you.

WHY CAN'T I GET OVER YOU?

I don't want you back...

I just want

to stop wanting you back.

WHY CAN'T I GET OVER YOU?!