Verse 1
I walked away twice, yeah, I’m the one who closed the door
’Cause loving you too heavy had me bleeding on the floor
I didn’t leave ’cause I stopped caring, nah, it cut me like a knife
But I was drowning in my shadows, trying to save your life
You gave me light when my whole world was dim
But my head was full of noise, I couldn’t let you in
So I ran from your arms, thinking distance was the cure
Didn’t know that pushing you away would hurt me even more
I thought I’d come back stronger, thought you'd understand
But silence grew between us like a desert eating land
And now regret is screaming, I want you back, I swear
But you blocked me out completely… like I was never there
Chorus
I left twice, but never ’cause I wanted to forget
It was fear, it was pain, it was love I couldn’t get
Now I’m the one who’s broken, crying in the dark
You erased my name like I never touched your heart
I pretend I’m strong, but inside I’m torn apart
You blocked me, left me with the ghosts of who we are
I walked away twice… but losing you wasn’t the plan
Now I’m living with the emptiness I put in your hands
Verse 2
I rewind every moment, every “stay” I never said
Every time you reached for me and I ran instead
You were fighting for us while I fought myself
I thought leaving was protection, but I just killed my help
Didn’t wanna drag you through the storm inside my chest
Didn’t feel like I was worthy, didn’t think I was the best
So I made the stupid choice to disappear from your world
Thought I was sparing you the mess… but I just hurt the girl
Now I’m stuck with memories, with the tears I never cried
Your silence is the answer to every time I lied
You cut me out completely, erased me from your life
And I can’t even hate you… I know I caused the knife
Chorus
I left twice, but never ’cause I wanted to forget
It was fear, it was pain, it was love I couldn’t get
Now I’m the one who’s broken, crying in the dark
You erased my name like I never touched your heart
I pretend I’m strong, but inside I’m torn apart
You blocked me, left me with the ghosts of who we are
I walked away twice… but losing you wasn’t the plan
Now I’m living with the emptiness I put in your hands
Bridge
I wonder if you wanted me to fight a little more
If you waited for a sign, for words I never swore
I ran ’cause I was scared I’d never be enough
Now I’m left with “what ifs,” yeah, this love was tough
Outro
So yeah, I left twice… but this time it’s you who’s gone
You blocked me with no goodbye, no chance to right my wrong
I act like I’m fine, but I’m breaking inside
I lost the love I tried too clumsily to hide
And now the guilt is the only thing by my side.