Are You Okay? (I’m So Far From It)

Why’d you tear me apart

Just to come back when you’re lonely?

You gave me scars I never asked for—

Now you ask if I’m okay…

But I’m so far from okay.

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I can’t sleep, these thoughts don’t stop,

You haunt my mind in every spot.

We said we’d try to “just be friends,”

But every story ends with someone bent.

You always let me pull you in,

Maybe ‘cause we were scared to end.

Now I replay the nights I showed up,

And it’s fucked up—

But without you, girl, I feel so stuck.

Close my eyes, I don’t see black,

I just see you and I want that back.

You broke me down just to crawl inside—

Now every heartbeat feels like a lie.

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Why’d you go and tear me apart

If you were gonna run back when you’re lonely?

It’s messed up how you gave me these scars

Then you show up and ask if I’m okay.

Are you okay? Are you okay?

I’m so fucking far from being okay.

Are you okay? Are you okay?

Stop asking—I’m breaking each damn day.

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Yeah… where do I even start?

Feel like I’m losing myself in the dark.

They say it gets better—

That shit feels like forever.

I’m tired of the pain, tired of fighting,

Tired of pretending, tired of writing

These songs like someone’s gonna hear—

But even God don’t answer when I’m crying.

I hate the man in the mirror,

I hate the voice in my brain.

Wish I could fix my heart

Before I fix the rest of the pain.

And mom, if you hear this—

Please don’t think you failed me.

You loved me the best you could…

But something inside me breaks me.

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I try to change, I try gracefully,

But the wounds scream back so blatantly.

I’m drinkin’ just to drown the noise,

I’m sinking in the void—

And I don’t got strength to pretend anymore.

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Why’d you go and tear me apart

If you’re gonna come back when you are lonely?

It’s messed up how you carved these scars

Then you show up and ask if I’m okay.

Are you okay? Are you okay?

I’m so fucking far from being okay.

Are you okay? Are you okay?

I’m breaking, fading—

Don’t make me say I’m okay.

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I don’t wanna die yet…

But some nights, I swear I’m close.

Lonely roads make lonely souls…

And I’m so lost inside my own.

If I disappear—

Just know I tried.

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Why’d you tear me apart

Then return when you’re lonely?

You gave me scars that still don’t fade—

And still ask if I’m okay…

No, I’m not okay.

No, I’m not okay.

I’m so far from okay—

But I don’t know how to say it.