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Lyrics
[Verse 1]
Woke up hurt, same four walls
Phone on silent, missed those calls
Heart on empty, cup on full
Chasin’ that quiet that swallows it all
Pour that purple in the soda, let it swirl slow
Tryna flood the memories till they all go
Mama prayin’ for me, I’m just prayin’ I don’t feel
If I’m dreamin’ or I’m dyin’, I don’t even know what’s real
[Chorus]
I been takin’ all these drugs just to feel okay
Tryna turn my brain off, tryna fade the day
If I’m numb for a minute, that’s the only way
To say I’m fine when I’m not, when I’m not okay
Sippin’ till the pain don’t talk my name
Floatin’ in a storm that look like rain
If I’m numb for a minute, that’s the only way
To say I’m fine when I’m not, when I’m not okay (yeah)
[Verse 2]
Everybody say, “You good?” I say, “Yeah, I’m straight”
They don’t see the shaking hands, they don’t see the weight
I been lookin’ at the ceiling like it’s talkin’ back
I been runnin’ from a heart that always jumps the track
Pills in the cabinet, thoughts in the red
Voices in the dark tryna live in my head
If I hit the bottom, will it feel like rest?
Or will I wake up still with this hole in my chest?
[Chorus]
I been takin’ all these drugs just to feel okay
Tryna turn my brain off, tryna fade the day
If I’m numb for a minute, that’s the only way
To say I’m fine when I’m not, when I’m not okay
Sippin’ till the pain don’t talk my name
Floatin’ in a storm that look like rain
If I’m numb for a minute, that’s the only way
To say I’m fine when I’m not, when I’m not okay (oh)
Details
GeneratedFeb 11, 2026
Duration2:04
LanguageEnglish
Style
rap, Dark melodic trap beat, sparse piano and airy pads over heavy 808s; male vocals half-rapped, half-sung with slurred, emotional delivery. Hook drenched in layered auto-tune harmonies; verses stay tight and confessional, ad-libs tucked behind key phrases. Final chorus adds subtle choir texture and wider stereo delays to feel like drifting out of reality.
Credits
Prompt by
Tjawesoemenss
TjawesoemenssModelAria v5
Prompt
Takin drugs and drinking lean and to just be numb from the pain just to be okay, rap
