[Verse 1]
I been holdin’ strong for so long
White knuckles on a cliff I can’t climb
Smile stitched on like it’s part of my face
But you don’t see the storm in my mind
I got jokes, I got laughs at the table
You got love for the mask that I wear
You see “fine,” you don’t see me shakin’
You hear “yeah,” you don’t hear that I’m scared
Every night I replay old summers
Bare feet, cracked streets, we were free
You say, “You good?” I say, “Always”
But that “always” been killin’ me
[Chorus]
I’ve been holdin’ strong for so long
But this weight been breakin’ my bones
If I fade from your arms tonight
Just know you were my home
It’s my time to let go, let go
Don’t blame yourself when I’m gone
Just remember every laugh, every light
I love you, carry on (carry on)
[Verse 2]
You remember all them late-night talks?
You were scared, I said, “Lean on me”
Said I’d never let the darkness near you
Took your fear, kept my own on a leash
I was patchin’ every tear in your story
While mine kept pourin’ through the seams
You saw strength, you ain’t see me drownin’
You saw calm, you ain’t hear me scream
I ain’t quittin’ on the love you gave me
I’m just tired of this war in my chest
If I slip through your fingers, forgive me
I been tryin’, I was givin’ my best (my best)
[Chorus]
I’ve been holdin’ strong for so long
But this weight been breakin’ my bones
If I fade from your arms tonight
Just know you were my home
It’s my time to let go, let go
Don’t blame yourself when I’m gone
Thank you for the memories, the light
I love you, carry on (carry on)