I’ve seen hearts jump just to fill a space
Calling it love just to numb the ache
Late night bodies, empty names
Temporary sparks, permanent pain
I won’t trade gold for a moment of touch
Won’t sell my peace just to feel “enough”
I’d rather stand here alone and whole
Than lose myself just to fill a role
I’m not scared of silence
I’m scared of regret
Not scared of waiting
I’m scared I’d forget
What I deserve
What I’m worth
What my time is worth
Fear is temporary, regret is forever
I’d rather stand alone than settle for never
I won’t fall just because I’m lonely
Love hits different when it’s holy
Why waste a minute of this wild life
On the wrong arms holding me at night?
My time is mine — I won’t pretend
I won’t live for someone else again
I’ve watched people shrink to fit
Changing their fire just a little bit
Dimming their shine to keep someone near
Trading their truth just to calm their fear
But I’m not built for borrowed dreams
Or half-lit love and in-betweens
If it’s not real, I let it go
I’d rather rise than settle low
I’m not scared of walking away
I’m scared of waking up someday
Wondering why
I let my life
Be someone else’s lie
Fear is temporary, regret is forever
I’d rather bleed truth than fake it together
I won’t fall just because I’m lonely
I’d rather wait for the one who knows me
Why waste a minute of this one life
Trying to turn wrong into right?
My time is rare — I won’t pretend
I won’t live for someone else again
I’m not afraid of empty space
I’m afraid of losing who I was made
To be
I’m not afraid of sleeping alone
I’m afraid of calling the wrong heart home
And I won’t trade
My future days
For temporary flames
Fear is temporary, regret is forever
I won’t chain my heart to “maybe” or “whatever”
Love finds you when you’re ready — not broken
Not when you’re desperate for words unspoken
My time is sacred, my soul is fire
I won’t shrink just to feel desired
If it’s not real, I let it end
I choose myself — again and again
Special_Nobody
