Watching you drift away has been the cruelest pain, not all at once but slowly, like watching the stars lose their light one by one. The glow you used to have when you looked at me faded from your eyes and left me standing here wondering where I lost you. I keep replaying every moment in my head trying to figure out what I could have done differently to make you see I was never your enemy. I was always on your side.Everything I ever did came from love. I wanted to see you win, accomplish your dreams, and become everything you wanted to be. I tried to be your shelter when life became heavy, the one strong enough to guide us through the darkness when everything felt like it was falling apart. All I ever wanted in return was your loyalty, your trust, and faith in me that no matter how hard life got I would never let us fall.But somewhere along the way every conversation became another war. Every word I spoke felt twisted into something harmful when all I was trying to do was protect what we built together. I was never trying to hold you back or dim your light. I was trying to help you see the path ahead so you would never have to walk through the darkness alone.
After all these years of mestayingloyal, never hiding another woman behind your back, never giving you a reason to doubt my love, all it took was a secret chat with some else for you to decide you were done with me, done with us, done with our family. That is the part tearing me apart inside because after everything we survived together I never thought we would become strangers living in the same broken home.
Now I carry this weight in my chest wondering why I was never enough for you. No matter how much of myself I gave it always felt like I fell short of the man you wanted mbe to be. I broke myself trying to meet expectations I could never reach, always missing the mark, always feeling like I failed the one person I loved most.
Because truthfully all I ever wanted was to love you so deeply that you never questioned your worth another day in your life. I wanted to show you the world, be your peace during chaos, your strength during weakness, your home during every storm. Even after all the pain and all the nights feeling invisible beside you, I would still choose you every single time
Special_Nobody
