[Intro]
mm-mm
I don’t wanna close my eyes
because I know what’s coming
[Verse 1]
lights still on, I keep them bright
dark feels heavier at night
heartbeat loud in empty air
like something’s already there
I try to slow my breathing down
but my mind won’t let me now
every time I start to fade
it pulls me back the same way
and I know what sleep can do
it plays the past in vivid loops
I don’t get peace, I get the truth
I wasn’t ready to relive it too
[Pre-Chorus]
I’m tired but I’m terrified
of what my mind will show me
[Chorus]
I don’t wanna sleep
don’t wanna dream tonight
(don’t wanna dream)
because I know what waits behind my eyes
I don’t wanna sleep
if it brings it all back again
I’d rather stay awake
than go through it all in my head
oh-oh
I’m scared of what my mind creates
(what it creates)
yeah-yeah
so I fight the night and stay awake
I don’t wanna sleep…
because I don’t feel safe in dreams
[Post-Chorus]
Oh - oh - oh
keep the light on
Oh - oh - oh
don’t let me drift
[Verse 2]
every sound feels too loud now
silence never feels safe somehow
I watch the hours pass me by
just trying not to close my eyes
people say “just rest your mind”
like I can switch it off in time
but I’ve been there too many nights
and I know what it brings back inside
so I sit here wide awake
shaking through the memories it makes
trapped between exhaustion and escape
but either way it’s pain I face
[Pre-Chorus]
I wish my dreams would leave me alone
just for tonight
[Chorus]
I don’t wanna sleep
don’t wanna dream tonight
(don’t wanna dream)
because I know what waits behind my eyes
I don’t wanna sleep
if it drags me back again
I’d rather stay awake
than lose myself in it again
oh-oh
I’m scared of what my mind creates
(what it creates)
yeah-yeah
so I fight the dark and stay awake
I don’t wanna sleep…
because I don’t feel safe in dreams
[Bridge]
maybe sleep is supposed to heal
but mine just reopens everything I feel
so I sit in the dark instead
trying not to fall into my head
[Chorus]
I don’t wanna sleep
but I’m so tired tonight
(so tired)
caught between survival and my mind
I don’t wanna sleep
but I can’t keep running forever
still I’m scared of closing my eyes
because it all comes back together
oh-oh
I wish my dreams would let me go
(let me go)
yeah-yeah
just for one night, let me be alone
I don’t wanna sleep…
but I don’t know how to stay awake forever
[Outro]
mm-mm
eyes open
still here
still scared
but still here