Don't Sleep

mm-mm

I don’t wanna close my eyes

because I know what’s coming

lights still on, I keep them bright

dark feels heavier at night

heartbeat loud in empty air

like something’s already there

I try to slow my breathing down

but my mind won’t let me now

every time I start to fade

it pulls me back the same way

and I know what sleep can do

it plays the past in vivid loops

I don’t get peace, I get the truth

I wasn’t ready to relive it too

I’m tired but I’m terrified

of what my mind will show me

I don’t wanna sleep

don’t wanna dream tonight

(don’t wanna dream)

because I know what waits behind my eyes

I don’t wanna sleep

if it brings it all back again

I’d rather stay awake

than go through it all in my head

oh-oh

I’m scared of what my mind creates

(what it creates)

yeah-yeah

so I fight the night and stay awake

I don’t wanna sleep…

because I don’t feel safe in dreams

Oh - oh - oh

keep the light on

Oh - oh - oh

don’t let me drift

every sound feels too loud now

silence never feels safe somehow

I watch the hours pass me by

just trying not to close my eyes

people say “just rest your mind”

like I can switch it off in time

but I’ve been there too many nights

and I know what it brings back inside

so I sit here wide awake

shaking through the memories it makes

trapped between exhaustion and escape

but either way it’s pain I face

I wish my dreams would leave me alone

just for tonight

I don’t wanna sleep

don’t wanna dream tonight

(don’t wanna dream)

because I know what waits behind my eyes

I don’t wanna sleep

if it drags me back again

I’d rather stay awake

than lose myself in it again

oh-oh

I’m scared of what my mind creates

(what it creates)

yeah-yeah

so I fight the dark and stay awake

I don’t wanna sleep…

because I don’t feel safe in dreams

maybe sleep is supposed to heal

but mine just reopens everything I feel

so I sit in the dark instead

trying not to fall into my head

I don’t wanna sleep

but I’m so tired tonight

(so tired)

caught between survival and my mind

I don’t wanna sleep

but I can’t keep running forever

still I’m scared of closing my eyes

because it all comes back together

oh-oh

I wish my dreams would let me go

(let me go)

yeah-yeah

just for one night, let me be alone

I don’t wanna sleep…

but I don’t know how to stay awake forever

mm-mm

eyes open

still here

still scared

but still here