Intro – Whispered, eerie synths]
Jack in my cup
Mary in my lungs
Acid on my tongue
Thoughts on a gun…
Yeah, this one’s for the ones who smile while they're dying.
[Verse 1 – MGK x $uicideboy$ vibe]
I been chasin’ dreams with a cigarette drag
Heart full of pain and a duffel bag
Of regrets, pills, and a flask
Happiness? That’s in the past
Shrooms got me talkin’ to the stars
Acid had me drivin’ through the dark
Jack Daniel’s like, “Don’t even start”
He been with me since the day I fell apart
Mary whispers like, “Breathe it in slow”
But I’m barely here, bro
Eyes low, soul froze,
Feelin’ like a shadow in a place I don’t know
[Hook – Falling in Reverse melodic/scream mix]
I got voices in my head that I can’t ignore
Tied a noose with a name, now I sleep on the floor
I keep prayin’ to a God I’m not sure exists
While I drown in a world that don’t know I exist
So I sip, I smoke, I trip, I choke
Laugh in the mirror with a suicide joke
Every dream I had just floats away
And I wonder if I’ll die or fade...
[Verse 2 – Tech N9ne / Em fast flow]
Look—
I been on edge like a tightrope dancer
Mind’s like cancer, can’t find answers
Fake-ass friends say “pray, don’t panic”
But they ain't in my head where the demons banter
Thoughts race quick, like six-speed shifts
One minute I’m cool, next I’m itchin’ my wrist
Therapist talkin' like, “son, you’re gifted”
But I can’t find joy in the f***in' distance
This ain’t no phase, this is chemical pain
Burnin’ through my blood like Novocaine
Smiles feel like a mask I wear
And hope’s just a lie dressed up in prayer
[Bridge – Shakewell-style hook w/ FX]
Swervin’ in a hearse that I call my whip
With a bottle in my lap and a blade on my hip
Ain’t scared to die, I just fear I’ll exist
One more day in this f***in' abyss
[Hook – Repeat / Screamed Variation]
I got voices in my head that I can’t ignore
Tied a noose with a name, now I sleep on the floor
I keep prayin’ to a God I’m not sure exists
While I drown in a world that don’t know I exist
So I sip, I smoke, I trip, I choke
Laugh in the mirror with a suicide joke
Every dream I had just floats away
And I wonder if I’ll die or fade...
[Outro – Spoken Word / Fading Echo]
If life is a game, I’m missin' the rules
If hope is a lie, then I’m just a fool
They say "you’re loved"... but it don’t feel true
So I wrote this song, in case I don’t make it through
If you want, I can break it down into beat BPMs, flow patterns per verse, or suggest producers who’d kill this sound. This one’s heavy — and real as hell.
