Lyrics

Intro – Melodic / Dreamy / Floating Vibe] Yeah… Jack in my hand, demons in my head They said I need meds But they never said why I still feel dead

[Hook – Melodic / Juice WRLD inspired tone] I been trippin’ off tabs just to find my peace Still can’t sleep, got war in me They said I’m sick, I said, “Tell me what’s sane?” Poppin’ prescriptions that poison my brain It’s my BPD, got me up and down One day I’m the king, next day I drown I don’t trust the pills that they gave to me So I light it up just to breathe… Yeah, it’s my BPD

[Verse 1 – Technical / Emotionally Sharp / Joyner-inspired] Risperidone had me feelin’ like a mannequin Fluoxetine made me dull, I was panickin’ Olanzapine? Shit, that was the worst I was smilin’ on the surface while I prayed for a hearse I ain’t tryna be numb, I just wanna be me But I’m caught between chaos and apathy One voice tellin’ me “Live,” the other “Leave” It’s a tug-of-war and I’m wearin' the leash Shrooms in my system, tryin’ to find God Acid in my veins just to beat the odds Weed got me calm, but the bottle talks louder Said if I wanna fly, I gotta burn like powder They call it disorder, I call it design If feelin’ too much is a crime — then I’m doin’ my time

[Pre-Chorus – Tension Building / Spoken-Sung] I don’t need to be sedated I just need to feel awakened And I been on this edge too long Tryna balance right and wrong

[Hook – Repeat / Bigger] I been trippin’ off tabs just to find my peace Still can’t sleep, got war in me They said I’m sick, I said, “Tell me what’s sane?” Poppin’ prescriptions that poison my brain It’s my BPD, got me up and down One day I’m the king, next day I drown I don’t trust the pills that they gave to me So I light it up just to breathe… Yeah, it’s my BPD

[Verse 2 – Kanye-inspired / Spoken Word with Rhythm / Emotional Control] They tried to box me in with a bottle and a name Told me I was broken, told me I was flames “Take these pills, you’ll feel better soon” But better ain’t real in a padded room I don’t wanna be another case file Another name they sedate and then exile I’m not crazy, I’m just fed up I’ve seen more truth with my eyes shut I’ve seen God in the glow of a trip I’ve seen pain that don’t heal with a script If I feel too much, that’s a gift But they look at me like I’m glitchin’ quick Nah… This is my life, not your chart I bleed ink straight from the dark I’m not your patient, I’m the art And I’ll break before I let you tear me apart

[Bridge – Melodic with Grit / Reflective] I know what it’s like to feel hollow To beg for a high you regret tomorrow To pray for a crash just to feel the climb To lie and say “I’m good” when you’re dyin’ inside

[Final Hook – All-In Vocals, Raw Emotion] I been trippin’ off tabs just to find my peace Still can’t sleep, got war in me They said I’m sick, I said, “Tell me what’s sane?” Poppin’ prescriptions that poison my brain It’s my BPD, got me up and down One day I’m the king, next day I drown I don’t trust the pills that they gave to me 