Intro – Whispered / Spoken over ambient keys]
Jack’s in my hand
Mary's in my lungs
And reality’s something I only visit…
When the high is gone.
[Verse 1 – Rap (MGK/Hollywood Undead style)]
Jack Daniel’s my best friend, he don’t judge me
He just listens while I’m drownin’ in this ugly
World that don’t care if you break or bend
Where a fake smile’s easier than tryin’ to pretend
Mary Jane rollin’ up just to take the edge
Off these suicidal thoughts that dance on the ledge
I dropped shrooms for the colors, acid for the truth
But all I found was trauma dressed up in a booth
[Pre-Chorus – Melodic (Linkin Park / Falling in Reverse style)]
I can’t find peace in a world this loud
I scream for help but I hate the sound
They say, “Chase your dreams,” but they laugh when I run
Tell me, what’s the point if I’m never enough?
[Chorus – Explosive / Emotional Rock]
These drugs don’t love me, they just numb me out
Tryna fight my demons but they love the sound
Of my breakdowns, and my fake crown
Livin’ in a world that just beats you down
My goals feel distant, like stars in space
I reach and I reach but I can’t keep pace
So I fall, and I fade, into my head again
Where Jack and Mary are my only friends
[Verse 2 – Dual Vocals / Rap & Screamed blend]
I took a hit just to silence the noise
‘Cause every dream I had got killed as a boy
They told me grow up, chase the check, find peace
But all I found was pills and a half-night's sleep
Labels said "you’re too real, too sad, too much"
But I’m just tryin' to breathe without fallin’ to dust
This world worships filters and lies
While the broken ones vanish behind bloodshot eyes
[Bridge – Screamed & Spoken]
I’m not okay—never was, never will be
Success feels like a myth they sold to kill me
Every door’s locked, every light burns out
I’m just a song away from checkin’ out
[Breakdown – Heavy Instrumental / Screams]
L I M I T S — I break but don’t bend
R E A L I T Y — ain’t nothin' like they said
S T R I V E — but the bar don’t move
So I dive into drugs just to make it through
[Final Chorus – Bigger, Desperate, Vulnerable]
These drugs don’t love me, they just numb me out
Tryna fight my demons but they love the sound
Of my breakdowns, and my fake crown
Livin’ in a world that just beats you down
My goals feel distant, like stars in space
I reach and I reach but I can’t keep pace
So I fall, and I fade, into my head again
Where Jack and Mary are my only friends
[Outro – Soft Vocals over piano, fading out]
Maybe I’ll find peace in a place where dreams don’t die
But right now…
I'm just surviving on a high.
