VERSE I
I told myself that silence
Could bury what I knew
That if I never named it
I could survive you
You stopped saying my name
Like it burned against your lips
And I stopped standing close enough
To feel your fingertips
We learned to keep our distance
We learned to leave the room
But every time you walked away
You took the air with you
PRE-CHORUS
Tell me
Did your heart betray you too?
Did you hate yourself
For wanting what you knew
You couldn’t choose?
CHORUS
Because your eyes said,
“God, I want you”
And mine said,
“Then why don’t you?”
We stood there
Like sinners at confession
Praying for rejection
I’d walk away
You’d let me leave
Like heartbreak was a choice
And not a need
We chose the pain we knew
Over the life we’d never live
And called it strength
VERSE II
I memorised your silence
The shape of every stare
The way you’d look right through me
Like touching me was there
I counted every moment
You chose to turn away
And hated you for leaving
When I prayed you’d make me stay
Because nobody prepares you
For the cruelty of fate
To spend your whole life finding someone
And find them far too late
PRE-CHORUS
Tell me
Did the nights destroy you too?
Did you replay every look
The way I still replay you?
CHORUS
Because your eyes said,
“God, I want you”
And mine said,
“Then please take me”
But we stood there
Like saints with dirty secrets
Terrified to keep them
I’d walk away
You’d let me go
While every part of us
Was screaming no
We chose the pain we knew
Over the life we’d never live
And called it love
BRIDGE
I hated you for knowing
I hated me for showing
Every look was a confession
Every silence was permission
Do you know what it’s like
To grieve a future
That never happened?
God…
I do
FINAL CHORUS
YOUR EYES SAID,
“GOD, I WANT YOU”
AND MINE SAID,
“PLEASE, THEN TAKE ME”
BUT WE CHOSE
THE PAIN WE KNEW
OVER THE LIFE
WE NEVER GOT TO
SO TELL ME
DID YOU FEEL IT?
DID IT BREAK YOU?
DID YOU LOVE ME
IN ALL THE WAYS
YOU NEVER SAID?
Because if you felt it too…
Then we spent our whole lives
Leaving our love alive.
DarkDesire
