CONSTANT REMINDER

We started as two strangers killing time,

Then somehow your chaos started feeling like mine.

You showed me demons you keep underneath,

And somehow your storm became my fucking peace.

I never asked you to be saved,

I just stayed when everyone else walked away.

You heal the wounds I never let you see,

While I stand guard like that’s all I’m meant to be.

You know every way to put me back together,

But I don’t know how to let you hold me when I’m breaking.

I’m so damn good at being your shelter,

I don’t know how to tell you I need one too.

I’ll stand in your storm,

I’ll take the fucking rain,

Fight every demon screaming out your name.

Lean on me when the whole world disappears,

I’ll be your constant through the worst of your years.

But watching you talk to somebody else

While I’m fucking killing myself to keep you safe

Is tearing me apart in ways you’ll never know.

And maybe you’ll never choose me—

But I don’t know how to let you go.

I see you smile when he says your name,

And I hate that I’m jealous because you deserve that flame.

I want to tell you what you mean to me,

But I’d rather swallow every word than make you feel guilty.

Loving you was never meant to be a cage,

So I’ll hide the fucking war I’m fighting every day.

I’ll stand six feet back and pretend I’m okay,

While every part of me is begging you to stay.

I DON’T WANT TO BE YOUR FUCKING HERO!

I JUST WANT YOU TO SEE ME!

I’M TIRED OF BEING THE ONE WHO’S STRONG!

LET ME BE SOMEBODY’S WEAKNESS FOR ONCE!

Maybe I’ll never be the one

You reach for when the night is done.

Maybe he’ll get the heart

I’ve been too scared to ask for.

And if that’s what makes you happy,

I’ll swallow every fucking word.

I’ll smile while it kills me

Because your happiness comes first.

I’ll still stand in your storm,

Even if you choose him in the end.

I’ll still fight the darkness,

Even if I’m only your friend.

When you forget you’re worth loving,

I’ll remind you every fucking time.

When the world says you’re broken,

I’ll tell you you’re still worth a fight.

You may never choose me.

Maybe that’s something I’ll have to accept.

But I’ll never leave you alone with the thought

That nobody loves you.

Because if I can’t be the one you love,

I’ll still be the voice that reminds you—

You’re fucking loved.