I Wish I Hated You!!!!

Feeling lost inside my mind about what happened with you! We used to be perfect. Now it’s like I can’t even remember a time I can look at you and think I love you. This hate is overwhelming me inside but I can’t show it! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wish I hated you, but I can't lie

You still flicker inside, like a dark neon sign

Lost in the shadows of memories we've made

All the lies, all the nights of playing the game

Gambled my soul just to hold onto us

Falling apart, but I can't get enough!!!!!!!

Stress over the little things, hanging on a thread

Feels more comfortable, even when we're misled

She's like a ugly tattoo, but she's got it all

Still feeling the pain, hear the distant call

I wish I hated you, but all I do is pray

For a version of us that’s pushed away

They say it's over, but I'm fine again

Trying to stay sober, but I feel the end

Stressed and dying, still holding on

To the love that's gone, the love that's gone!!!!!

Fighting the urge, the urge to forget

Drowning in the past, drowning in regret

I wanna hate you!!!!!!, but I love you still

Broken and battered, against my will!!!!!!

Wish I hated you, but I can't deny

In the end, all I do is cry

Fine again, just pretending I’m okay

Hanging on, won’t let it slip away

I wish I hated you, but I still burn for you

Every scar you left is a flame I run to

They say let it go, but I’m too far gone

Screaming your name when the lights are on

I can’t breathe, can’t bleed you out

Love’s a curse I can’t live without

Wish I hated you… but fuck, I still do!!!!!