Say It Like You Mean It

Mirror on the wall, yeah, it knows my name

Spits it back like a curse, like a shot to the brain

Every scar, every sin, every night I can’t sleep

Got my ghosts in the corner and they’re digging in deep

I wear a smile like a loaded gun

Tell the whole damn world that I’m doing fine

But the voice in my head keeps pulling the trigger

Says I’ll never be enough, says I’ll never get bigger

Would I say this to somebody I love?

Would I leave them bleeding just to call it tough?

I’d never talk to a friend

The way I talk to myself

Drag my soul through the dirt

Then blame somebody else

I’m my own worst enemy

My own personal hell

Screaming “you deserve this”

While I’m breaking myself

Knuckles white on the edge again

One more fight with the man I’ve been

Every regret like a knife in my back

Every step forward just pulls me back

I built these walls with the words I said

Every “you’re worthless” still lives in my head

I’d die for the people I love without fear

But I leave myself to drown right here

Would I tell them they’re too far gone?

Would I let them believe they should’ve never held on?

I’d never talk to a friend

The way I talk to myself

Drag my soul through the dirt

Then blame somebody else

I’m my own worst enemy

My own personal hell

Screaming “you deserve this”

While I’m breaking myself

( scream )

SHUT UP

I’m sick of the voice, sick of the war

Sick of believing I’m worth nothing more

If mercy exists, maybe I need some too

If I’d save them… why not me too?

I won’t talk to myself

Like I was born to lose

I won’t keep digging graves

With the words I choose

I’m done being the fire

That I keep walking through

If I’d fight for my friends

Maybe I should fight for me too