THE STORM IN HER

I learned the sound of thunder in her voice,

The kind of chaos that I fucking called a choice.

She’d call me when the darkness got too loud,

I’d drag her demons screaming from the ground.

I never asked her to be mine,

I just kept standing on the goddamn firing line.

Every scar she couldn’t bear to wear

Somehow found a fucking home on me somewhere.

And God, I swear,

I found my fucking peace inside her despair.

I was the shelter in her storm,

The arms that kept her safe and warm.

I fought the monsters in her head

While mine were fucking left for dead.

I’d burn myself just to keep her whole,

Give her everything and lose my soul.

But when the fucking sky turned blue,

She found somebody else to run to.

I saved her from the dark—

She just never chose my fucking heart.

I watched her fall a thousand times,

Picked up the pieces and called them mine.

She’d swear that I was all she needed,

Then disappear when the bleeding stopped.

I became the man behind the shield,

Taking every fucking wound she wouldn’t feel.

And maybe that’s the cruelest part—

She never knew how badly she broke my heart.

I don’t regret

The blood, the tears, the nights I can’t forget.

But I fucking hate

That saving her was my favorite mistake.

I was the shelter in her storm,

The one who kept her breathing through the war.

I fought the monsters in her head

While mine were screaming in my fucking bed.

I’d burn myself just to keep her whole,

Give her everything I couldn’t hold.

But when the fucking sky turned blue,

She found somebody else to run to.

I saved her from the dark—

She just never chose my fucking heart.

I WAS THERE WHEN NOBODY FUCKING CAME!

I TOOK THE FIRE! I TOOK THE BLAME!

I GAVE YOU EVERYTHING I HAD!

SO WHY THE FUCK AM I THE ONE LEFT BAD?!

YOU CALLED ME WHEN YOU COULDN’T BREATHE!

I FUCKING DIED SO YOU COULD LEAVE!

I WAS YOUR SHIELD! YOUR GODDAMN WALL!

BUT I WAS NEVER WHO YOU’D CHOOSE AT ALL!

I was the shelter in your storm,

The fucking armor keeping you warm.

I fought every demon you couldn’t face,

Just to watch somebody else take my place.

I’d burn myself just to keep you whole,

Now there’s nothing left but an empty fucking soul.

When the sky finally turned blue,

You chose somebody who wasn’t me to hold onto.

So let the thunder fucking come.

Let it tear through me.

For once, I won’t be your shield.

For once…

I’ll let myself fucking bleed.