Calm Feels Like Drowning

[Intro – soft]
I don’t trust the silence… it’s louder than the storm…

[Verse 1]
I learned to breathe in burning rooms,
Made peace with wreckage I consumed,
Every scar a map I knew by heart…
Chaos sang me lullabies,
Static love, electric highs,
I found myself where worlds fall apart…

Now it’s quiet… too damn still,
No fight, no fire, no iron will,
Just empty space I can’t outrun…

[Pre-Chorus]
Who am I without the war?
No slammed doors—just something more…

[Chorus]
I found peace in the chaos, I was sane in the pain,
When everything shattered, I felt something again,
But this calm feels like drowning, no noise in my veins,
And I’m choking on silence like a f***ing chain—
Yeah, I miss the destruction, I miss feeling alive,
Now the quiet is screaming and I’m losing my mind,
I made peace with the storm, now the calm feels wrong…
Like I don’t belong…

[Verse 2]
I used to live on razor edges,
Built my home in broken trenches,
Every second was a war I’d survive…
Now the sky is open wide,
Nowhere left for me to hide,
No chaos left to make me feel alive…

The silence shows me what I’ve been,
Every crack beneath my skin…

[Pre-Chorus]
No more noise to drown it out,
Just every fear I scream about…

[Chorus]
I found peace in the chaos, I was sane in the pain,
When everything shattered, I felt something again,
But this calm feels like drowning, no noise in my veins,
And I’m choking on silence like a f***ing chain—
Yeah, I miss the destruction, I miss feeling alive,
Now the quiet is screaming and I’m losing my mind,
I made peace with the storm, now the calm feels wrong…
Like I don’t belong…

[Breakdown – scream]
GIVE ME BACK THE NOISE!
THE WAR IN MY CHEST!
WITHOUT ALL THE CHAOS—
I’M LOST IN MY HEAD!

[Bridge – melodic]
Maybe I’m addicted to the fall,
To the chaos in it all…
Maybe silence is the truth I fear…
No more running from the flame,
No one else left here to blame…
Just me and everything that’s here…

[Final Chorus]
I found peace in the chaos, but I don’t feel the same,
Now the calm’s got me questioning why I begged for change,
There’s no war left to fight, just the weight of my thoughts…
Maybe this is where I learn I’m not lost…

[Outro – soft]
I don’t trust the silence…
But maybe I’ll survive…

Emo rock, gritty, raw