Static in my Veins

(Soft clean guitar, distant reverb)

I hear your voice in the dead of night

Like a ghost that won’t let me fucking breathe

Every word cuts deeper than the last

Yeah, you’re the scar I’ll never leave

(Build, drums kick in)

I tried to bury it, six feet down

But it claws its way back through my chest

Every “I’m fine” is a loaded gun

And I’m the one who pulls it best

(Pre-Chorus – strained vocals)

I’m sick of living like a shadow in my own damn skin

Sick of losing every fight I never let begin

(Chorus – full, emotional, slight grit)

I’m screaming your name but it dies in my throat

Choking on words that I never fucking wrote

You lit the match now I’m burning alone

A heart made of glass in a house made of stone

If this is healing, then why does it bleed?

Why do I beg for the pain that I need?

You’re the static running wild through my veins

And I swear I’m addicted to the fucking pain

(Verse 2 – heavier, more bite)

Every memory tastes like rust

Like blood on the back of my tongue

You said forever like it meant a damn thing

Guess forever just means “until you’re done”

I see your face in every crowd

Every stranger wears your eyes

And I hate myself for missing you

While knowing every part of it’s a lie

(Pre-Chorus – louder)

I tried to cut you out but you’re stitched into my soul

Every piece I tear away just leaves another hole

(Chorus – bigger, layered vocals)

I’m screaming your name but it dies in my throat

Choking on words that I never fucking wrote

You lit the match now I’m burning alone

A heart made of glass in a house made of stone

If this is healing, then why does it bleed?

Why do I beg for the pain that I need?

You’re the static running wild through my veins

And I swear I’m addicted to the fucking pain

(Bridge – breakdown, near scream)

(half-scream)

Rip it out, rip it out, I don’t wanna feel this

Every heartbeat’s just another fucking weakness

(shouted)

I’d burn it all down just to watch it fade

But I’d still see you in the ashes I made

(Final Chorus – full scream/clean mix)

I’m screaming your name ‘til my lungs fucking break

Drowning in every mistake that I make

You were the poison I begged you to be

Now there’s nothing left of me to fucking save

(Outro – soft, fading)

Static…

You’re still inside me…

And I hate that I need it…