(Soft clean guitar, distant reverb)
I hear your voice in the dead of night
Like a ghost that won’t let me fucking breathe
Every word cuts deeper than the last
Yeah, you’re the scar I’ll never leave
(Build, drums kick in)
I tried to bury it, six feet down
But it claws its way back through my chest
Every “I’m fine” is a loaded gun
And I’m the one who pulls it best
(Pre-Chorus – strained vocals)
I’m sick of living like a shadow in my own damn skin
Sick of losing every fight I never let begin
(Chorus – full, emotional, slight grit)
I’m screaming your name but it dies in my throat
Choking on words that I never fucking wrote
You lit the match now I’m burning alone
A heart made of glass in a house made of stone
If this is healing, then why does it bleed?
Why do I beg for the pain that I need?
You’re the static running wild through my veins
And I swear I’m addicted to the fucking pain
(Verse 2 – heavier, more bite)
Every memory tastes like rust
Like blood on the back of my tongue
You said forever like it meant a damn thing
Guess forever just means “until you’re done”
I see your face in every crowd
Every stranger wears your eyes
And I hate myself for missing you
While knowing every part of it’s a lie
(Pre-Chorus – louder)
I tried to cut you out but you’re stitched into my soul
Every piece I tear away just leaves another hole
(Chorus – bigger, layered vocals)
I’m screaming your name but it dies in my throat
Choking on words that I never fucking wrote
You lit the match now I’m burning alone
A heart made of glass in a house made of stone
If this is healing, then why does it bleed?
Why do I beg for the pain that I need?
You’re the static running wild through my veins
And I swear I’m addicted to the fucking pain
(Bridge – breakdown, near scream)
(half-scream)
Rip it out, rip it out, I don’t wanna feel this
Every heartbeat’s just another fucking weakness
(shouted)
I’d burn it all down just to watch it fade
But I’d still see you in the ashes I made
(Final Chorus – full scream/clean mix)
I’m screaming your name ‘til my lungs fucking break
Drowning in every mistake that I make
You were the poison I begged you to be
Now there’s nothing left of me to fucking save
(Outro – soft, fading)
Static…
You’re still inside me…
And I hate that I need it…