Getting High Tonight

“I thought I saw you in a dream again…”

“Why do you still feel so close?”

I still wake up cold on the side you used to lay,

Shadows in my room always wear your face,

Tryna move on but my mind don’t change,

Every new touch just reminds me of your name.

Late night drives with the rain on repeat,

Heart too tired but my soul can’t sleep,

You faded out but you still haunt me,

Like a broken film inside my memories.

And I swear I hear your voice when the world gets quiet,

Tryna bury all the pain but my thoughts keep fightin’,

Everybody says time heals slow…

Then why you still feel like home?

Fuck it, I’m gettin’ high tonight,

Clouded my mind just to feel alright,

Pills on the sink and the smoke outside,

Tryna kill your ghost but it won’t die.

Fuck it, pour another line tonight,

Hearts go numb when the stars don’t shine,

You still live rent-free in my mind,

So I get faded just to pass the time.

I been hiding all my feelings in designer smoke,

Laughing with my friends but I still feel broke,

Hard to let somebody in this damaged soul,

‘Cause everybody leaves when you need ‘em most.

And I hate how I still compare every girl to you,

Tryna find myself but I’m stuck on the truth,

Maybe love dies young, maybe people do too,

Maybe I just never learned how to lose you.

Now the ceiling got me staring for hours again,

Every little memory cuts deeper than them,

Everybody says “just let it go”…

But they don’t know what I know.

Fuck it, I’m gettin’ high tonight,

Clouded my mind just to feel alright,

Pills on the sink and the smoke outside,

Tryna kill your ghost but it won’t die.

Fuck it, pour another line tonight,

Hearts go numb when the stars don’t shine,

You still live rent-free in my mind,

So I get faded just to pass the time.

Maybe one day I’ll forget your voice in my head,

Maybe one day I won’t replay what you said,

But tonight I’m still lost in the blue neon glow,

Chasing ghosts through roads nobody knows.

If I see you in another life,

Would you stay this time?

Or leave me here alone again

With your shadow in my mind…

I thought I saw you in a dream again…

But maybe dreams are all that’s left of us.