Flowers For The Past

“We gather here today… to bury the man he used to be…”

Black suit soaked while I stare at my name

Cold wind blowin’, yeah the sky look the same

Used to have a heart, now it barely even beats

Ever since you left, I been dying every week

Flowers at my feet and they all turn grey

Tryna numb the pain but it never goes away

I gave you my soul, you gave distance and lies

Now I hide my emotions with a fake-ass smile

Late night drives with the tears in my eyes

Everybody say heal, but nobody say why

Why the good ones break and the fake ones win

Why love feel warm then turn so violent

And I swear I tried

God knows I tried

But every time I loved

A piece of me died

Black suit in the rain by my own grave

Tried to save my heart but it never got saved

Flowers all dead, tears runnin’ like chains

Guess the old me finally faded away

Now I’m cold inside, yeah my soul don’t shake

Built walls too high for anybody to stay

If you hear my name, don’t remember the pain

Just know the old me got buried in the rain

Now it’s dark rooms, pills, smoke in my chest

Money comin’ in but I still feel stressed

Everybody around but I still feel alone

Like a ghost in my body tryna find home

You said forever, guess forever meant months

Now my trust issues deeper than the bass and the drums

I don’t hate you, nah, I just hate what you did

Turned a good soul numb, now I live how I live

And my mom ask me why I been distant lately

Truth is I don’t think this world could save me

So I stare at the sky while the rain falls down

Hoping one day peace finally comes around

If I disappear, would they notice at all?

Would they miss my voice or just miss my calls?

I been losing myself tryna carry this pain

Now I’m standing alone at my grave...

Black suit in the rain by my own grave

Every broken promise carved into my face

Flowers all dead, memories still remain

Guess the old me really faded away

Now the thunder hit hard while I scream your name

But the person I was never coming back again

If love really heals, why I still feel chained?

Guess the old me got buried in the rain…

“Here lies the boy who loved too hard…”