[Intro]
Nobody told me love would hurt like this…
Nobody told me I’d learn alone…
Yeah…
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[Verse 1]
Everybody had a map, I was lost in the rain
Tryna build a whole life while I’m fightin’ the pain
Nobody showed me how to heal what broke
So I stitched my own wounds every time I went ghost
Used to stare at the ceiling, ask God for a sign
Now I’m carryin’ myself through the hardest nights
They say I’m doing better, guess it looks that way
But they don’t see the battles that I fight every day
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[Pre-Chorus]
I got scars where my trust used to be
Still lookin’ for the person I need
And every time I think I’m finally enough
Another memory comes and tears me up
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[Chorus]
Someone should’ve told me love would hurt this much
Leave your heart wide open then destroy your touch
I’m stronger than I was but I still can’t tell
Why I’m doin’ so much better while I’m livin’ in hell
Livin’ in hell…
Livin’ in hell…
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[Verse 2]
Had to be my own teacher, my own friend
Learned how to survive when the world caved in
Every lesson came with blood on the page
Every year that passed just added more weight
I don’t cry like I used to, I just shut down slow
Got a thousand old wounds that nobody knows
And I smile for the picture, keep my head held high
While a younger version of me still asks why
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[Pre-Chorus]
I got scars where my trust used to be
Still lookin’ for the person I need
And every time I think I’m finally enough
Another memory comes and tears me up
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[Chorus]
Someone should’ve told me love would hurt this much
Leave your heart wide open then destroy your touch
I’m stronger than I was but I still can’t tell
Why I’m doin’ so much better while I’m livin’ in hell
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[Verse 3]
Maybe I was never broken, maybe just ignored
Tryna win a battle nobody prepared me for
Built my own direction from a dead-end road
Carried all this weight when I should’ve let go
If you see me shining now, just know the truth
Every piece I built came from what I went through
Yeah I’m finally moving, but the pain still dwells
I’m doing a lot better… still livin’ in hell
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[Outro]
Nobody told me…
Nobody showed me…
So I guided myself…
And maybe that’s the reason I’m still here…
Even if it feels like hell…
Yeah…
Still here…
Still here…
desolate