Holding On

[Verse 1]
I don’t feel like I belong in my own skin tonight (nah…)
Every mirror talks back, I’m losing the fight (yeah…)
Voices in my head got me questioning worth (in my head…)
Like I showed up late, missed my purpose at birth (too late…)

Try to scream but it echoes back hollow and thin (echoes…)
Like the world don’t care if I lose or I win (don’t care…)
Staring at the ceiling, cracks in the paint (all night…)
Maybe I’m just built to carry this weight (too much…)

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[Pre-Chorus]
Everybody watching like I’m something to judge (yeah…)
But nobody ever really gives a fuck (nah…)
I’m alone in a room full of eyes that don’t see (alone…)
What it’s like just trying to be me (be me…)

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[Chorus]
I don’t wanna be here, but I’m still here somehow (still here…)
Heart barely beating but it won’t back down (won’t back down…)
Feel like nothing, like I’m never enough (not enough…)
But I’m breathing through the doubt, through the dust (just breathe…)

If my light goes dim, I ain’t scared of the dark (no fear…)
Living in the shadows, falling apart (falling…)
Maybe one day I’ll be more than this pain (one day…)
Still here somehow… maybe that means something (means something…)

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[Verse 2]
Every step feel heavy, I’m stuck in the mud (can’t move…)
Dreams feel distant, like they’re not in my blood (so far…)
I see people moving fast, chasing their goals (they gone…)
I’m stuck in place tryna piece up my soul (my soul…)

They don’t see the nights I don’t sleep at all (no sleep…)
Or the way I fake it, ignore every call (fake smile…)
Every “you okay?” I just say I’m fine (I’m fine…)
I don’t even know what’s wrong in my mind (don’t know…)

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[Chorus]
I don’t wanna be here, but I’m still here somehow (still here…)
Heart barely beating but it won’t back down (won’t back down…)
Feel like nothing, like I’m never enough (not enough…)
But I’m breathing through the doubt, through the dust (just breathe…)

If my light goes dim, I ain’t scared of the dark (no fear…)
Living in the shadows, falling apart (falling…)
Maybe one day I’ll be more than this pain (one day…)
Still here somehow… maybe that means something (means something…)

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[Bridge]
Maybe I’m not finished, maybe this ain’t the end (not the end…)
All this breaking got me learning to bend (I bend…)
I don’t feel it now, but I’m still right here (still here…)
And maybe that alone means something (something…)

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[Final Chorus]
I don’t wanna be here, but I’m still here somehow (still here…)
That’s gotta mean more than I see right now (right now…)
Maybe someday I’ll be enough in my eyes (someday…)
Maybe I’ll rise from these lows I despise (rise up…)

If my light goes dim, I’ll still carry the spark (still a spark…)
Even if it’s hidden deep in the dark (deep down…)
I ain’t nothing yet… but I’m not done the same (not done…)
Still here somehow… maybe I’ll be something (be something…)

Slow emotional melodic rap, soft piano, ambient pads, deep 808s, airy vocals, dark introspective vibe