Father Please

My demons speak, in my head where I am weak, I blocked them out too even think, but they won’t stop, they resume the link, but I won’t let them, I’ll sever the connection, misguide their direction, bleed all my perfections, plotting my next escape, from my head, no one is safe, not even my meds, soon I’ll end this debate, how far do I run, all the way from hell too heaven, am I truly god’s son, do I even send it, isn’t that the question, or is this the end we where waiting for, not to lose or win, let me open the door, let me explain, all of my curiosity, showing no shame, to all my hypocrisy, nauseously, I’ll defend my thoughts in my head, never to fear what’s under my bed, dead, skeletons buried in the sheets, ghosts haunting me, they call me a freak, all because I don’t care what I even mean, don’t hold up, don’t slow down, drowning my soul, that’s why it was never found, but hear my sound, I’m screaming in pain, hold my glorified shame, as we sit in the rain, getting soaked, in our unholy clothes, judgmental gloat, fuckin hold me by the throat, my day will come, as we see the rising sun, I will never be done, for I am the one,

Father please, forgive my ways, I only hope, that I can say, all my prayers, and death today, may we fly, and soon we will pray

Father please, forgive my ways, I only hope, that I can say, all my prayers, and death today, may we fly, and soon we will pray

Stuck too this earth, while god sits in heaven, I’m ashamed of my own birth, I think I was eleven, when I started to see the truth, my emotions dropped so far down, god gave me the boot, I can’t even frown, but yet they still call me a clown, fuck all of you, didn’t see my past, you never witnessed all of my trash, you wouldn’t even last, now I wake up, got this ache in my back, I jump into the tub, just to take a bath, clean my unholy skin, just smile with a creepy grin, as I start to burn within, I might be broke with no money, I’m never broke with god, I’ll never be hungry, for his holy odds, one day you’ll see, when I sit next to my grave, the day you’ll grieve, just when I’m there under the shade

Father please, forgive my ways, I only hope, that I can say, all my prayers, and death today, may we fly, and soon we will pray

Father please, forgive my ways, I only hope, that I can say, all my prayers, and death today, may we fly, and soon we will pray