[Intro]
mm-mm
don’t get too close
I know what I do
[Verse 1]
it starts off fine
I’m laughing again
then I remember
how this usually ends
I don’t even notice
when I start pulling back
just little changes
I can’t take back
I’ve been here before
it looked like this
so I start preparing
for what I might miss
[Pre-Chorus]
good things feel dangerous
when you’ve lost them before
[Chorus]
I ruin it
I ruin it
not cause I want to
but I do
I get close
then I back away
like I’m waiting
for it to change
I ruin it
I ruin it
cause I’ve been hurt
before
oh-oh
I ruin it
yeah-yeah
I ruin it
[Verse 2]
I remember quiet days
turning into nothing
messages slowing down
then disappearing
so now I watch closely
for anything small
like it’s a warning sign
before the fall
you could mean it fully
and I’d still doubt
cause I’ve seen “forever”
fade out
[Pre-Chorus]
I learned to expect it
before it happens
[Chorus]
I ruin it
I ruin it
I don’t mean to
but I do
I get safe
then I run
before it’s even
undone
I ruin it
I ruin it
cause I don’t trust
what stays
oh-oh
I ruin it
yeah-yeah
I ruin it
[Bridge]
maybe it’s not that I ruin it
maybe I protect myself too early
maybe I don’t know how to stay
without waiting for the leaving
maybe I’m just scared
of being wrong again
so I act like it’s ending
before it begins
[Chorus]
I ruin it
I ruin it
but I see it now
more than before
I get scared
then I move
then wonder
what I did it for
I ruin it
I ruin it
but I don’t want to anymore
oh-oh
I ruin it
yeah-yeah
I ruin it
[Outro]
mm-mm
don’t get too close
I’m trying to learn