[Intro]
mm-mm
I missed it
that's the problem
(mm-mm)
I missed it more than I wanted to
[Verse 1]
I spent days disappearing
telling myself I was fine
keeping everybody at arm's length
staying safely outside
then somehow I laughed again
forgot to keep my distance
and now my chest feels different
like I made a small mistake
[Pre-Chorus]
not because it was bad
because it was good
[Chorus]
come here
go away
stay close
give me space
I don't know why
I'm built this way
I miss people
then panic when they stay
oh-oh
I wanted conversation
(conversation)
yeah-yeah
until I got it
and now I want to hide again
[Post-Chorus]
(mm-mm)
what's wrong with me?
(oh-oh)
nothing
I guess
[Verse 2]
cause when something matters
I start looking for exits
counting all the ways
it could disappear eventually
I know it's irrational
I know it's not fair
but my mind starts building walls
before anybody gets there
and I hate that part of me
the one always preparing
for endings that haven't happened
yet
[Pre-Chorus]
I wanted connection
just not the vulnerability
[Chorus]
come here
go away
talk to me
not today
I don't know why
I'm built this way
I miss people
then panic when they stay
oh-oh
I wanted the feeling
(the feeling)
yeah-yeah
until I felt it
and now I don't know what to do
[Bridge]
maybe I'm not scared of losing people
maybe I'm scared they'll matter
maybe I'm not scared of silence
maybe I'm scared of after
maybe that's why
every good thing feels complicated
cause part of me still expects
everything to leave
[Chorus]
come here
go away
that's the game
my heart still plays
wanting closeness
then running away
wanting someone
then needing a break
oh-oh
maybe one day
(one day)
yeah-yeah
I won't mistake safety
for something I should escape
[Outro]
mm-mm
I missed it
and that's the problem
(mm-mm)
I missed it more than I wanted to
Beexii