Me, Myself & Her

Staring

Staring into my reflection

My reflection

Told me to trust

To follow my heart

To follow

Looking at me with disgust

Severing all connection

Severing

Til the day I depart

Kept me from the rest

You look into me

Knowing my every move

Always

I would have never guessed

This is who I’m meant to be

You sound just like me

You’re not on my side

You’re choking me out

You don’t want me free

Turning me inside out

Every word that you say

Keeps me further away

She lives in my head

Every word that you’ve said

If I’m losing control

Was it her all along?

You tell me they’re watching

They see me

So don’t let them in

You turn every maybe into what could of been

You sharpen my thoughts till they make me bleed

Bleed

Then hand me the pieces and tell me it’s what I need

What I need

You’re getting louder

You won’t shut the hell up

Keep saying I’m just a fuck up

You sound just like me

I hear you clearer when I’m alone

All alone

You couldn’t wait til I had grown

All the hate you’ve shown

Every choice that I make

I face the consequences

Like I’m scared of what’ll happen,

If I don’t listen to you

My reflection stares back at me

She knows what I’m thinking

Bring me back to reality

I’m already sinking

Sinking

She knows what’s best

When I refuse to obey

I feel a pressure in my chest

Why won’t she go the fuck away?

You sound just like me

You won’t let me out

Let me out

Your voice echoes like empty halls

You show no mercy

No mercy

I don’t doubt

I answer upon your calls

I have no choice

No choice

If I don’t reply

You take away my voice

Let me go

Release me

You demand for control

Then swallow me whole

I can’t tell where you end or where I begin

I try to reason but you won’t let me in

You know every secret I hide

Every time that I lied

Can’t escape, you’re already there

’Cause I gave you my voice

And now you’re everywhere

You tell me they’re fake

every smile is a lie

All lies

You taught the idea that I won’t survive

You turn every doubt into something real

Then call it protection — like that’s how I heal

Say it louder — I know what you’ll say

They don’t want you

They’ll walk away

Walk away

You repeat it, over & over again

Till it burrows so deep that I call it a friend

You don’t need chains

You don’t need a fight

She just lives in the dark

And waits for the night

And the worst part is

I won’t even fight

I don’t even deny it

So say it again…

Tell me what to believe

If you’re not really me…

What did I become?

And if I’m not real

What did you become?