Life is such a sweet insanity,
Locked in a vanity
Never what you thought
or had planned to be,
Its full of ups and downs ,same ol shit,
Thats when it takes a unpredictable turn,
Shit may suck at first may feel like the worst thing is happening,
An all the time you spent planning and planning and plotting a course
Is valuable time wasted
Good things misplaced
Bad things presented, good times forgotten or misrepresented no love
excepted even though you meant it
This time.
Insanity and loyalty
tough sell to the ones you loved
and treated wrong. Now that the love is gone you cant get it back it won"t help to try theres to many times the lies filled the gaps where love had already left.
Your trying to hard they sometimes say
its just not enough theres just not a chance for us to patch up the patchwork this quilt is a old piece of ancient history
Hang it in the museum of modern history,
Its history, historical non fiction causing me friction to have to be lived in where theres no damn reason to relive.
See ive moved on, they ask me how is that possible when theres been no one past me, no new one to fill in the gap that was left when you left
Well the answers simple. Im not a half of person looking for another to make me whole. I can move on my own and think for myself I dont need permission to move and to breath and the path that im on isnt planned ahead instead I just take life as it comes
Well u wont understand and I know that u cant comprehend living life on your own... alone
Thats my insanity no not vanity not planned for me or exactly a choice I would think was right for me but im happy more times than im not.
Yes I want to feel love and I want to be loved and I got lots of love to give
Trust is not something that I try to give out so easily
At least as far as love goes
It can appear im not geared to have up a perminant guard
In aspects of my life I may get shuffled aside
Disregarded before it even started
Dearly departed and I havent even died.
Im alive and I wont try to convince those who got it all covered
If you cant see me as the man that I am then fuck it then
When push comes to shove I always come out on the top
It might not appear that it happened that way but if you look closer id bet you would say that im much better off with the path that ive chosen insane as it seems havent forsaken my dreams just put them on hold never wanted that much and not hard to achieve
just let me be, ill be fine, just live my life right, try not to lose it, stop hearing the haters and knock off the boo shit.
Karmas got my back
insanity might be a good fit for me now what could weirder than that.
